Refleksiong

Hmmm in my birthday. Some one told about the feelings,.... hmmm I already try my best to tell about my respon. Hopefully it will not hurt anyone.

I am not that good.

Ya Rabb, pertemukanlah kami dengan jodoh yg Engkau redhoi.

# before that day, 22 of august also a big day in my life. When I got the aprovalnfrom pak abadi, subhanalloh... it feels like I want to takbiran keliling kampus,... hehehe. What a wonderful experience to be revised by you dear pak abadi. I thank you very much for your guidance in revising my thesis.

#finally.... done

# alhamdulillah. #thanks for the suport dear everyone :)

Sorry

hmm...
I have a bad habit about my respect to people around me. I really appreciate about respect in a relationship. But, when at a time you lose my respect, it will be hard for me to give it back to you. Even for a person that is a friend before.

When he or she did something that makes me to put a line that I will not give him or her my respect then, that it is. I know that it is not good, but ... yeah this is me. I try, I try to keep the relationship with that person, but do not hope that it will be the same as before.

#Istill in revision mode
#Alhamdulillah, orang-orang baik dan pengertian ada diberbagai penjuru.
#Yes it is your right to give or not give a help for somebody # I just a bit dissapointed and (sad)

#I do apologize for everything
#And being in this condition makes me know many people.
#Its always good to see you dear friends,, keep fight for the approval.

Move the status to blogger post

Okay, after a screaming time, i decided to move the main sociality in to the blogspot. so that only the people who really want to see my post will try to visit this blog.

I will survive. Dear best friend, i do apologize, let the words i said as a wind in this hard day. Do not keep it in your mind. Hopefully it will not bother you.

I am quite down because of this revision time, it makes me a bit alay and lebay in reacting to something happens. But maybe the words i said was what i really feel. But, dont worry.

I will try to keep the feeling just in my hearth. Because not everything should be told. The sadness, the fear and the nerveous and even the happiness, i will not expose it that much later on. I will try to keep it in my heart since in some cases it could hurt somebody else as I did before.

However, i used to talk to my close friend, but I think that is not important because i realize that for you maybe it just nothing. Therefore, i will only write it here, since the blog will not judge and it will not complain. hmm... The risk is, that many others will now about it, haha.. But never mind. I will not tell everything.

#oke
#iwillfocus on this revision
#Pak Abadi, i will not disappoint you. Insya Allah.
#Dear Allah help me please. #Don't leave me alone
# :D

Waiting the lecturer

Hmm... actually I already got the information from my fellow students that the lecturer that I want to meet is busy. However, I still hope that I can consult about the revision with him today. And I will realy thank if he give me the acc.

#this morning is not too good, my mood is fly away. Yeah, its only about my feeling since I think that it is mine. Nothing wrong, clearly, its only came from the myside.

# I did not find even one of my collage in this lobby. Not as the day before, many of them wait for the lecturer as I did. But now, I think I am the oly one master students that wait for the lecturer. May be they already finished the revision and just busy with other stuff  like preparing the photograph :D

# :) its challenging ofcourse and I believe that there will be a good thing behind this.
#The beuaty of getting pak abadi as one of the examiner :)
#feeling alone, both conotative and denotative meaning

Dear friends, you teach me about this life, thank you

Sometimes, we only need to growth the sense of belonging to our friends, then we will know that we still have many reason to keep fighting for our dream. Since, they, the friends around you give you an example of hardwork and a strong immunity to this challenging world. I do thank you God for alowing me with them. Dear friends, ajha ajha fighting. Believe me, you support me that much even most of you did it without knowing about it. Thank you. #revisithesis yg #challenging #pak abadi yg cold and to the point, i will survive insya Allah.

Mozaic lazuardi biru

I dont know, what is the best title for this post. These three words come durectly when i start to open this blog post editor. Mozaic lazuardi biru. What does it exactly mean... Hmmm i dont know :). It is a mozaic since it will consist of fragments of my life. Lazuardi, ehmmm whatever..., biru, is my favorite colour, the colour of calmness, comfortness and lifeness (my own words :D). #~ the day of busyness when we dealt with the thesis revision and defense preparation. We face it together. And again, i met with a night without a sleep and submit 10 minutes before the deadline. Subhanalloh. I do thanks you God fir this blessing. #~ the days before the defense. When the list of the date and the examiners appeared in front of the TU Office, another good news i got. The defense is one day before my leaving for Padang. Alhamdulillah, Since the flight couldnot be resecheduled. The dag dig dug time, because i was a little bit scary with the examiners. :D but i believe that everything will be ok. :) #~the defense. I collected the praying from all of my family and friends. I thought it help me much to put a strong belife in my hearth that i could passed it well. And in the D day, i was not nerveous that much. :) alhamdulillah. In front of the examiners i could perform my best and could enggaged them to involve in my presentation. Moreover, in the questions part, i could answer it properly ( i think). Subhanallohiwalhamdulillahiwallahuakbar.  #~ flight to padang. 17 july, was the flight date. Surabaya batam padang. And here i am now. In padang the beloved city. Alhamdulillah

The beauty of writing

I tried to find what is the similar word with "beauty" but in a more "gentle" term. But I could not find it.  Should I use the "handsmy" of writing?? I think its not appropriate :D

Okkey, the counting is now off, since I already got the unofficially OK from the two supervisors. Now is about my patience and my hardwork to make it official. Aheee Uyeaahhh,,, gogogogo


Next Monday finish #tekadmembara #semangatberapi-api

They, who appreciated the "patience"

Hmmm... Its about my story when i wanted to have a supervision with my supervisor. On friday, i started to waited for him. He said that he was busy. Next week. Ya next week is the time that he allocated for us. Okkay... Hmmm monday,  I started to sit in front of his office in the morning, together with the other thesis wariors. He came. But he said that that day he still busy, here and there. We asked for his time although in his spare time between his busyness. Okkay, he was not promise but he said that " if you want to wait me until the late afternoon, then if i have time i will supervise you" hmmm okkay, we standed on the right choice. We wait for him. But until 5 oclock he still not coming. 5 person in the list become four, then 3 and finally two. And when the athan maghrib, the supervisor was coming and he said " luar biasa, maghrib dulu ya..." alhamdulillah. hmm its my story, and finally i got an unoficially ok for my thesis. Gogogo #fighting

My "Master"piece (on Progress)

In the middle of finalization of my "Master"Piece. Pray for me ya Bro sist

"Bring the acc form!"

#A new library in pasca unesa. Bigger than the previous one. Alhamdulillah.

#"lenkapi lampiran, perhatikan daftar pustaka, dan perhatikan penomoran"
" berarti bapak sudah setuju dengan formatnya?"
" iya sudah"
" berarti tinggal dilanjutkan pak"
" iya, lengkapi dan scan gambarnya tolong diperjelas. Diskusikan dengan pak agung. Tuntaskan"
" baik pak"
" bimbingan selanjutnya sekalian bawa form ttd pembimbing ya"

#duug.. subhanallah.... okkkayh pak . "I will"

What a nice day.
However, I know that the defense is not ax easy as I think. I should stand on my own shoes. And the eximenee in unesa so so so,..... chalenging

Ya Rabb, allow me to finish it on your way.

#Gogogogo
#Allahuakbar

Lets start the writing

The data are already collected. But they still stick in the memory of the computer. Still in untouchable mode. Hmmm.... Okkeh. A new home, a new spirit and lets rock the keyboard. Time to #analyseanalyseanalayse. Bismillah. Ajha ajha fighting. Hoy hoy

Hm...collecting data done. Thanks al hikmah

Tak terasa ya, I already finished collecting data. Hmmm its a wonderfull experience to be a partof sdial hikmah surabaya. Interaction with many visioner teacher who teach with passion not only as a job, but from the bottom of they hearth.

When the children growth with love and character building, then we can see a bright future ofournation on their eyes.

The integration of the islamic value in the learning process, make the teachingand learning become more dynamic.

Again, its not only about a job, but its a passion.

Thanks God, You Gives me such a great opportunity. (^_^) alhamdulillah

____________
#time to analyse the data.
#how to start
#its about writing
#not writing for a blog cuy
#its writing a thesis
#aigo.... otoke....

How hard to lead you to discuss

Ambil data pertemuan 1 siklus 1. Fiuh, i tend to explain everythings. Hehe. Not much time i give fir the students to explain since i want them get the idea immediately. Ok. Calm down. Today must be better. Analyze the result and revise the content. Prepare for the rpp. Whoaaaa.... Many things to do. Ganbatte

Bimbingan 2: Yes.. you can continue

As I said before, this morning, I started to wait for Pak Agung at 7.

ANd Pak Agung came at around 9. Although i was in the first place on the line, Pak Agung called one name, and a lady go inside the room to get the supervising. Then, ...

It should be me. But, a group of other students want to cut the line, but, sorry ya sist, I already learned on how to be polite in ur queque, and also how to protect and get your right. SOrry,, very very sory.

pandangan matanya dan gumamannya seolah bilang "mau masuk duluan?"

I answered by "Ya iya lah Ronal duluan, masak kamu yang duluan???" (with a low level voice, but i am sure they ccan heared it well) -_- They just came lately, many people already wait for Pak Agung, and they just want to cut the line??????????????

But the cases can be different if Pak Agung called the name, its mean that Pak Agung alreaady have special appoinment with the person, and she or he get the priority on Pak Agung's point of view.

Fiuhhhh.... I should be more patient and have a well adaptation with the mentality in this country (my country).

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Do you have a big change from the previous conference in utrecht?

No, Not really, i just combine the first and the second activity and add a card game at the end of the lesson sequence.

Okkay, then I will not revise much about your design.

Then He corrected some part of my worksheet, only about the indonesian that i used.

He also said, that if pak Mega (another supervisor) agree, I can start to collect the data.

Fiuh Alhamdulillah.

Semangaaat.

#---

At school, hmmm nice experience, nano-nano.

#---

Pak Agung, if  bla bla bla

Yeah, you can continue

^_^

SEMANGAAAAAAAATTTTT KAWAN

menanti untuk bimbingan

This morning, 7 oclok, I started to walk to pascasarjana unesa. Just for one reason, to be number 1 on the queque list for meeting with pak agung. Bismillah.

Last night, there are two point that should I concern to. First, one of my college said that one of my indonesian supervisor cannot actively use english. The second, we already got the feedback from our ducth supervisor. Hmmmm.... lets take a deep sigh first.....

There is a crucial comment about my design. The starting activity is not good enough.

Hmmm... but I am sure that I can revise it well. Yes, I can, I can, I can ^_^

Insya Allah.

Konfrensi Ba'da temu perdana dengan pembimbing

7 Feb 2014. Tidak hanya aku yang menemui pembimbing. Teman impome unesaku yg lainnya juga melakukan hal yang sama. Sebelumnya kami sdh mensurvey hal-hal terkait pembimbing kami masing-masing. Dan lalu kami mempersiapkan diri. Bahkan ada yg ga bisa tidur. Ada yang bersih-bersih kost tengah malam. Hehe... Kalau seseorang sudah melakukan hal hal yang kurang masuk akal di jam jam tertentu, itu artinya ia sedang galau :D
Nah, mulai lah kammi bertebaran. Dan subhanallah, banyak cerita yang nano nano. Dan kami selalu keep in touch d grup "unesa gemahripahlohjinawi" walau raga sedang kesana dan kemari. Berbaur dengan para pencari pembimbing lainnya. Ada yang menunggu dngan antrian yang sangat panjang. Ada yang mencuri lihat ke kelas tempat beliau mengajar. Ada yang tiap sebentat melihat apakah mobil beliau masih ada. Ada yang harus berlari antara pasca dan ruang s1 yang jaraknya lumayan jauh dan dibawah terik mentari. Subhanallah, mudahkanlah urusan kami ya Rabb. Kami akan berusaha sungguh-sungguh, insya allah. Tak semua cerita menemui pembimbing seindah ceritaku di post sebelumnya. Ada yang kena semprot sambil kertas nya di bolak balik, ada yang kena tanyai ini dan itu... Dan sore harinya, kami berkumpul di meja bundar food court bergiliran menceritakan pengalaman hari ini. Ya Rahman, terimakasih atas kesempatan yang hamba miliki, kesempatan untuk menjadi bagian dari 6 orang yang penuh semangat ini. Kami akan saling menguatkan. BISA BISA BISA. If there is no strugle, there is no progress. Dan kami menemui kesimpulan yg sama bahwa, we do love and miss you mieke, dolly, monica, frans, mark, and Maarten.

Bimbingan 1: Dari Padang lha kok Ronaaallll???

Berbagi tugas untuk memasukkan surat penelitian ke sekolah. Aku dan dua orang teman ke SD al Hikmah sedangkan 3 lainnya ke SD Lab UNesa. Wah nuansa sejuk dan damai menghiasi kawasan yayasan Al Hikmah. Teduh dan adem, mungkin karena keramahan dan wajah-wajah ustadz ustadzah yang membuat nya demikian. entahlah.

SD Lab Unesa, juga memberikan kabar harapan, walau memang masih harus menanti kepastian.

Dilanjut dengan menghampiri singgasana Pak Agung. Beliau adalah penanggung jawab program kami. WOW, orang penting memang, Antrian pasien bimbingan nya bejibun. Tak kan bisa kami memotong antrian, Tak enak rasanya, padahal kami hanya ingin konfirmasi, belum bimbingan. Tak kehilangan akal, kami gunakan telepon seluler. Ehm.... manjuur. Pak ini Cici. Cici ?? cici yang mana?. Cici Impome Pak. O iya iya, ada apa cici?. Dan dapatlah konfirmasi bahwa Dosen pembimbing kami sudah di proses. 

Cuss... mulailah kami berpisahan.

Diantara kami tak ada yang persis sama pembimbingnya. Rata-rata beririsan satu. Alhamdulillah aku kebagian pak MTB dan Pak Agung. Dan ternyata kabar-kabar yang kudengar tentang Pak Mega benar adanya. Orang nya ramah dan tak membuat jarak.

Sampeyan dari mana? Padang Pak.. Lha Padang kok Ronaaa??, hehe... biar modern dikit Pak :D

Topik nya apa? Pecahan Pak?

Nah coba, ada segitiga siku-siku dengan sisi siku-sikunya 4 dan 1. Tunjukkan representasi 1/2 pada segitiga tersebut!

Degh ... hahaha langsung ditodong. Dan jawaban ampuh adalah, nanti kami cari dulu Pak :D

Beliau bilang itu adalah pertanyaan yang beliau sampaikan saat ujian thesis atau disertasi ya waktu itu... :D

Overall ok. Taruh di beliau, dan selasa di ambil (^_^) Alhamdulillah. Ligaaat.

Dan sekarang aku sedang mem print bahan untuk pak Agung... eh malah mampir ngeblog. :D

Semangt, kawan. kita pasti BISA!!!