Fighting with myself

Believe it or not, these days I feel that i should fight with myself.

Because it seems that lazyness has occupied my mind. 

yeah, I can blame other things or make excuses for it. But, i realise that it is me, my self that cannot organise my time well.

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Honestly, I am currently at the stage of struggling with my research planning and progress.

I have two supervisors that are very nice and full of encouragement. I am feel sorry for them, because my progress is still left behind. They are always kindly support me to deal with everything.
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Now, the time is limited. And many things to be done.

Bismillah...

No more "I will do it later"
No more too much thinking and thinking and thinking.

just write it done now, right now.

:D :D :D

I can do it. insya Allah.
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Dear Allah, please help me to deal with these all.
I beg you for the whole of my life.
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And of course, I have a very happy life here, with my lovely wife and sons. 
Don't know what to do if they are not here :D

Thank you :D

Rindu

 Ah....

Hanya berpisah jarak antara rumah, sekolah dan kampus.

tapi rindunya kagak nahan.

Mungkin karena banyak waktu yang 2 bulan ini dihabiskan bersama dengan mereka.

love them so much. Alhamdulillah.

Semoga jadi anak-anak yang sehat dan sholeh

Notable Moments, Syukur Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah, it's been nearly two months since my family joined me here in Melbourne, specifically on November 14, 2023. Uda Aqsho has been attending NPPS and TPA Madania for about a month now. Alhamdulillah, we've achieved a lot, and all credit goes to Allah. I'm truly grateful for everything. We've faced various challenges together, and remarkably, we've managed to navigate them with joy

Some notable moments that I want to capture in this post are:

1. Adek Rasyid has started his preparatory school session at NPPS.

Actually, the school was supposed to begin for him next year, and we initially planned to enroll him closer to the commencement date. However, Allah guided us to expedite the process. His ways are always unpredictable. During a family gathering event, some friends discussed children and their schooling with Ummi. They suggested that we should start enrolling Rasyid early because schools sometimes have limited seats. At that time, I had intended to postpone it until I finished my revision (which seems to be an endless revision cycle :D), but Ummi was eager to do it as soon as possible. So, we went to the school with the required documents (which I had prepared following Uda Aqsho's documents).

Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akbar! The day we went to the school happened to be the last week before the "once a week" session started. Allahu Akbar. It turns out there are four sessions that parents and children who will join the preparatory school next year should attend. Alhamdulillah, we were able to be a part of it. Fortunately, Allah provided guidance through Ummi's friends. Thank you, Allah, and thank you to those kind-hearted people.

The enrollment process has been very easy and straightforward, Alhamdulillah.

2. Ummi has finally managed to secure a Letter of Acceptance (LOA) from Monash University and a scholarship from LPDP. 

This is a truly joyful moment after a long and challenging journey. Securing the LOA and scholarship is crucial for our family, as without these two things, we wouldn't know what to do. Honestly, up until now, we still don't have any other options. We literally don't know how Ummi would stay here in Melbourne without the scholarship and LOA.

Syukur Alhamdulillah. Thank you to everybody who has contributed to this achievement. May Allah reward you abundantly. Ameen YRA

3. Uda Aqsha was recognized as the best student for year 2 in this period.

One day this week, I picked up Uda Aqsha as usual. He approached me with his prestigious smile and showed me a card in his hand. The home-teacher had written appreciative words about Aqsha, highlighting his responsibility and hard work in completing all of his school assignments. I commended him for it and created an Instagram reel to document his reaction. Then, unexpectedly, Ummi connected with another Indonesian parent at NPPS who conveyed congratulations through WhatsApp. She mentioned that Aqsha was chosen as the best student for this period. Typically, there is an evaluation for each period, and the best students from each class are announced and recognized during the joint student meeting in the school hall.

Masha Allah, thank you, my diligent boy. I am reminded of the time when discussing school was a forbidden topic, even back in Indonesia because he didn't want to attend school in Melbourne. The period before starting school was a challenging and worrisome time for our family. On one hand, I felt compassion for Aqsha, who was about to face an unfamiliar school environment with limited English proficiency. However, Allah paved the way for His blessings. Since the first day, Aqsho has consistently gone to and from school with enthusiasm. Alhamdulillah.

Oh, there's a secret of Allah's love behind this achievement. Before this, Uda Aqsha participated in a class meeting activity at his school. He had put in effort but hadn't won yet. At home, Ummi said he was very sad, even to the point of tears, wondering why he never won any competitions. This was the case back when he was at Adzkia too, despite his sincere efforts. We comforted him, and it turns out Allah comforted him with this achievement. Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akbar.

And there's more to share; I will update you in future posts, insha Allah.

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Now, please keep me in your prayers as I strive to excel in my revision. The deadline is approaching."

The beauty of batuks

 sudah hampir 1 bulan mengalami batuk terus menerus. sepertinya ini gejala omicron.

Hmmm,... awalnya hanya ane yang batuk dan demam, lalu masuk minggu ketiga mulai diikuti oleh anggota keluarga. sehingga kami mengalami batuk serumah.

Yang paling kasihan itu lihat AoM dan anak-anak. semoga lekas sembuh dan Allah berikan kesembuhan maksimal. Aamiin YRA

conflict of interest between orang kecil and orang besar

Ah.. menjadi orang tua itu memanglah sulit..


Karena ia tak hanya tentang cerita senang-senang belaka.

misalnya ketika kita sudah lelah seharian bekerja dan berurusan... dan si buah hati pun malam hari masih punya energi yang banyak untuk bermain. dan maunya bermain bersama kita...

Walhasil...

kepentingan untuk istirahat berhadapan dengan kemauan si raja kecil untuk ditemani main...

Dan siapa kah yang menang?????


:D
Thank you Aom and Nenek

dear Aqsha

Shalahuddin Alaqsha Rifandi,


Hari hari yang penuh kebahagian bersamamu Nak..

dan tak terasa, engkau membesar dan membesar, makin lincah dan cerdas.

Tak terbayang nanti jika kamu sudah benar- benar besar...


Ah.. mari nak kita nikmati saja dulu masa-masa kecil mu ini.

kadang sempat ku berpikir, kala bersamamu.... "jangan lah terlalu cepat waktu mengantarmu besar..."


Abi masih mau bermanja-manja bersamamu...

:) :)

semoga jadi anak yang saleh

My #Aqsha First Flight

Alhamdulillah...

Tuesday 8 August 2017 with sriwijaya air sj020 from BIM to Kuala Namu Medan.

In the beginning, he really enthusiast, but then, his little boy instinct come up and its rise up when the plan landing process. Yeah.. it due to his ear or his degup jantung yang meningkat.


:) :)

overall we can finish it.

And then we took grab to get the online taxi and go to airy syariah medan sunggal

#Ready for tomorrow insya Allah

#BUDI LN seleksi berkas udah keluar pengumumannya. Alhamdulillah belum lulus.
Mesti semangat lagi belajar,

 

Ahh... Shalahuddinku...

These recent days, as i said in the previous post, are very busy.


And often i should extend my work time until mid night or even more.

And you know, my boy, Aqsha have a new habbit. Yup, playing around until midnight and even more sometime... -__-

But, yeah.. knowing that this little boy become taller and taller and more clever and  rrr r rr  :D makes me thank You ya Rabb.

Rabby Habli Minasholihin

2017 time for #PhD_Journey

Tidak terasa sudah masuk tahun 2017.

Alhamdulillah atas segala nikmat dan keberkahan serta lika liku indah perjalanan hidup selama ini ya Rabb. Terlebih tahun 2016 adalah tahun penuh dengan kenangan manis dan indah. perjuangan seorang dosen muda, suami muda, abi muda... :)

Tak sempurna memang.... tapi insya Allah Ane sudah berusaha.. walau kadang sabar itu hilang dan timbul.. walau kadang lebay dan lunglay... tapi toh karena Mu ya Rahman... ya karena izin dan ridho Mu.. hamba masih akan terus dan terus... terus berubah untuk lebih baik... terus berbenah untuk lebih sabar dan penuh semangat.

semakin cinta dengan dakwah ini... semakin butuh untuk selalu berada dalam dekapannya.

and dear Angel of Mine, thanks for being part of mylife dan tetaplah begitu selamanya hingga ke syurga... Amiin... 2016, bersamamu takkan pernah kulupa... :) kan menjadi sejarah manis perjuangan bahtera keluarga kita.

Ingat selalu visi misi cita cinta keluarga kita ya Sayang. :)
ingat kan Uda selalu.

Dear Aqsha... yg dalam namamu tertuang mimpi dan harapan kami... mimpi dan harapan bahwa Aqsha akan menjadi pejuang islam yang gagah berani... dan menjadi tentara pembebas palestina. Inysa Allah. Abi loves you, Aqsha sayang.

Mama, papa, Ibu, Atuk, om, tante, abang, adek2.. semoga semua dalam lindungan dan keberkahan dari Allah..

I am proud of you all.. semoga shaleh dan semakin shaleh..


#2017.... time for focus on my PhD Journey. Bismillah..
#go Abroad
#PhD
#Japan,Ausie, Holland  ayo aja
#RTM2018

Alhmdulillah, Allah masih menegur.

Ya... sudah terlalu lama mungkin hanya sibuk dengan rutinitas, maklum, rimba raya kehidupan ini kami arungi bertiga... dengan tugas dan deadline yg tiada henti.

Insya allah, semua ada hikmahnya.

Dear jazz and dear vario and dear xperia, I do apologize for not serving you well. Insya allah, I will remember that you also deserve to get your right.

Semoga ga ada problem lagi dengan kalian ya, dear.

Hmmm....
And my boy are growing up. Udah pintar ini itu, semoga jadi anak yg sholeh dan hafidz quran ya nak. :)

Hmm...
Hari ini kita ngedate, mumpung aqsha sama nenek. What a nice day, although,  although. ?. : D
Love you angel.

Alhamdulillah.

Sabar dan optimis

Membesarkan anak itu butuh kesabaran. Apalagi jika kita menumpangkan mimpi dan Cita-Cita Besar kepadanya.

Membesarkan anak itu butuh rasa optimis. Optimis bahwa kita bisa mendiamkannya yang sedang menangis keras. Optimis bahwa kita akan tetap sanggup menggendongnya walau hari demi hari bobotnya bertambah dan gerak motoriknya juga bertambah. Optimis bahwa kita bisa tetap Profesional bekerja walau hampir sepanjang hari kita habiskan bersama nya.

Ya... Sabar dan optimis. Karena anak kita adalah aset berharga perjuangan kita. Karena anak kita adalah anak-anak mata rantai perjuangan dakwah, insya Allah

Alhamdulillah,

Bahagia itu sederhana, sering orang kata begitu.

Seperti, dapat bertemu si buah hati setiap hari.. Love you aqsha

To be with you all the time

Dear my love,

Sometimes, I ask you, "when will you back to padang?"

By anychance, donot think that I am tired on doing this padang-payakumbuh things. Donot ever think that I dont want to  oftenly go to your family home.

The only reason I asked that question is because I want to see you and aqsha everyday. I wanna keep my eyes on the growing of our beloved aqsa second to second, day to day.

Hopefully, the house will be ready soon so that we can welcome you on this april, insya allah

4,5 months

Alhamdulillah, renewing the spirit.
All is well, and we can do it insya allah.

The deadline is coming.

#Hmmm, yeah its their right to judge but our task is only to show that we are in the right path. Ganbatte.

#My life my adventure. Its more challenging now, and it awesome.

#hmmm.. 4,5 months,then he or she will be here insya allah. YaRabb, keep them healthy and istiqomah in your way.