Fighting with myself

Believe it or not, these days I feel that i should fight with myself.

Because it seems that lazyness has occupied my mind. 

yeah, I can blame other things or make excuses for it. But, i realise that it is me, my self that cannot organise my time well.

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Honestly, I am currently at the stage of struggling with my research planning and progress.

I have two supervisors that are very nice and full of encouragement. I am feel sorry for them, because my progress is still left behind. They are always kindly support me to deal with everything.
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Now, the time is limited. And many things to be done.

Bismillah...

No more "I will do it later"
No more too much thinking and thinking and thinking.

just write it done now, right now.

:D :D :D

I can do it. insya Allah.
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Dear Allah, please help me to deal with these all.
I beg you for the whole of my life.
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And of course, I have a very happy life here, with my lovely wife and sons. 
Don't know what to do if they are not here :D

Thank you :D

Rindu

 Ah....

Hanya berpisah jarak antara rumah, sekolah dan kampus.

tapi rindunya kagak nahan.

Mungkin karena banyak waktu yang 2 bulan ini dihabiskan bersama dengan mereka.

love them so much. Alhamdulillah.

Semoga jadi anak-anak yang sehat dan sholeh

Notable Moments, Syukur Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah, it's been nearly two months since my family joined me here in Melbourne, specifically on November 14, 2023. Uda Aqsho has been attending NPPS and TPA Madania for about a month now. Alhamdulillah, we've achieved a lot, and all credit goes to Allah. I'm truly grateful for everything. We've faced various challenges together, and remarkably, we've managed to navigate them with joy

Some notable moments that I want to capture in this post are:

1. Adek Rasyid has started his preparatory school session at NPPS.

Actually, the school was supposed to begin for him next year, and we initially planned to enroll him closer to the commencement date. However, Allah guided us to expedite the process. His ways are always unpredictable. During a family gathering event, some friends discussed children and their schooling with Ummi. They suggested that we should start enrolling Rasyid early because schools sometimes have limited seats. At that time, I had intended to postpone it until I finished my revision (which seems to be an endless revision cycle :D), but Ummi was eager to do it as soon as possible. So, we went to the school with the required documents (which I had prepared following Uda Aqsho's documents).

Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akbar! The day we went to the school happened to be the last week before the "once a week" session started. Allahu Akbar. It turns out there are four sessions that parents and children who will join the preparatory school next year should attend. Alhamdulillah, we were able to be a part of it. Fortunately, Allah provided guidance through Ummi's friends. Thank you, Allah, and thank you to those kind-hearted people.

The enrollment process has been very easy and straightforward, Alhamdulillah.

2. Ummi has finally managed to secure a Letter of Acceptance (LOA) from Monash University and a scholarship from LPDP. 

This is a truly joyful moment after a long and challenging journey. Securing the LOA and scholarship is crucial for our family, as without these two things, we wouldn't know what to do. Honestly, up until now, we still don't have any other options. We literally don't know how Ummi would stay here in Melbourne without the scholarship and LOA.

Syukur Alhamdulillah. Thank you to everybody who has contributed to this achievement. May Allah reward you abundantly. Ameen YRA

3. Uda Aqsha was recognized as the best student for year 2 in this period.

One day this week, I picked up Uda Aqsha as usual. He approached me with his prestigious smile and showed me a card in his hand. The home-teacher had written appreciative words about Aqsha, highlighting his responsibility and hard work in completing all of his school assignments. I commended him for it and created an Instagram reel to document his reaction. Then, unexpectedly, Ummi connected with another Indonesian parent at NPPS who conveyed congratulations through WhatsApp. She mentioned that Aqsha was chosen as the best student for this period. Typically, there is an evaluation for each period, and the best students from each class are announced and recognized during the joint student meeting in the school hall.

Masha Allah, thank you, my diligent boy. I am reminded of the time when discussing school was a forbidden topic, even back in Indonesia because he didn't want to attend school in Melbourne. The period before starting school was a challenging and worrisome time for our family. On one hand, I felt compassion for Aqsha, who was about to face an unfamiliar school environment with limited English proficiency. However, Allah paved the way for His blessings. Since the first day, Aqsho has consistently gone to and from school with enthusiasm. Alhamdulillah.

Oh, there's a secret of Allah's love behind this achievement. Before this, Uda Aqsha participated in a class meeting activity at his school. He had put in effort but hadn't won yet. At home, Ummi said he was very sad, even to the point of tears, wondering why he never won any competitions. This was the case back when he was at Adzkia too, despite his sincere efforts. We comforted him, and it turns out Allah comforted him with this achievement. Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akbar.

And there's more to share; I will update you in future posts, insha Allah.

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Now, please keep me in your prayers as I strive to excel in my revision. The deadline is approaching."

Story of the "lovely" Before-Supervisory meeting 8

  Alhamdulillah, the 8th meeting went well. As usual, I had a hard time before the D-Day. As I mentioned on my social media, I even spent 3 days and 2 nights on campus. No, it's not because I didn't prepare earlier. I made sure to start preparing early for this meeting. But preparing a PhD research proposal in this academic atmosphere is not easy.

Despite the struggle, Allah always exists and always helps me,

Dear Uda, Adek, and my prospective heirs.
Never let Allah go from your life's journey. Always hold on to Him. Trust me.

In the past few days, I have been facing many challenges. I've been experiencing headaches with the combank app, which I can't access. I tried calling the provided hotline and even went to the branch, but it still doesn't work. I am unable to access what I need on the app.

I planned to transfer money for BUPA OSHC two days before the deadline. In the middle of the night, I tried to make the payment, but something unexpected happened. The bill payment website stated that there is a limitation on transferring the money and I needed to upgrade the limit. I'm not sure yet if I should upgrade it in my bank app or contact the web admin of the bill. If it's the former, then I still have trouble accessing it.

Today is the deadline, and after this day, the payment amount will increase. I can't imagine what I would do if that happens. Where would I find more money to cover the bill? If I have to go to the bank branch and the insurance office, it will reduce my time to prepare for the afternoon meeting. I was extremely frustrated last night, but I kept my spirits up. I took a deep breath and tried again to solve the app issue by following the steps given on the bank website. By the decree of Allah, it worked. Allahu akbar! I don't know why, but I had tried implementing the exact same steps several times this week and it didn't work. But suddenly, in the middle of the night, when I didn't know what to do, I put my full faith in Allah, and a miracle happened. Now I can access the app.

However, the problem is not yet resolved. I sent an email to the insurance campus representative. I know it was impolite to send an email in the middle of the night, but I wanted to make sure the admin would see my email and provide advice regarding the payment issue. Interestingly, the admin replied to my email in the morning and said that I could simply split the amount of money stated on the bill to match the transfer limit. Alhamdulillah, it was solved, and I managed to transfer the money. I am grateful that I will not have to pay the increased update fee.

Then... suddenly, my landlord came to the house. Finally, I could tell him about my plan to leave the house at the end of next month. I was a bit confused about how to properly communicate it to him. But Allah made a way for me, and he seemed to be okay with it and even gave me some advice on finding a new unit for my family. He's a good landlord. Thank you, Allah.

Then... the only problem remaining on my mind this morning was the preparation for the supervisory meeting. I still needed to revise the first chapter, but I didn't have enough time. Alhamdulillah, I managed to revise the important parts.

And tadaaa! The meeting went well. The supervisor helped me a lot. Of course, there are many revisions required, and some of the feedback will surely take up most of my time. But I enjoyed today's meeting, Alhamdulillah. Allah helped me again, and the one-hour meeting is now over.

Oh yes, I also managed to inform my supervisor about my plan to return to Indonesia next August to bring my family to Melbourne. Surprisingly, both supervisors were okay with it and had no concerns. Their only concern is about my proposal, so as long as the meeting and progress continue as usual, "We can still have the meeting online, only the time and location will be different," she said.

Alhamdulillah.

Now it depends on the visa and also the money (and the house, of course).

Bismillah.

No matter what, I must find a unit for August 2023. Insha Allah.

Please help me, O Lord.

New level of Vid Call

 What a joyful video call! Even though I am still struggling to meet my proposal writing target, spending time looking at you and talking with you has lifted my spirits. Hopefully, it will also inspire me to come up with beautiful sentences to write.

I am confident that, with the help of God, I can manage to complete it. I will give it my best effort to make it as good as I can. Oh, I apologize for the mistake in my previous statement. It's not about being good, but for now, it just about finishing it to the best of my abilities..

Alhamdulillah, Uda Aqsho managed to finish his first year of elementary school

 Alhamdulillah, today is the day for picking up the final report for my oldest son from SD IT Adzkia. I am extremely proud of him, especially considering he successfully completed his first year of elementary school. All praise be to Allah. I also want to express my heartfelt appreciation to my dearest AoM. I understand the challenges you have faced, particularly over the past four months. My love, you have done an outstanding job and achieved something truly valuable. I deeply appreciate your efforts, and may Allah grant you the best rewards for your hard work.

This is certainly not an easy task, as things are no longer the same as before. Uda will indeed experience some changes, as his ustadzah mentioned to you. However, with the help of Allah, we will strive to overcome these challenges and make Uda's journey more joyful. Our goal is to instill in him a strong spirit for learning, resilience against negative influences from his peers, and to raise him as a better son—an anak soleh.

Thank you for being our best support systems. Mama Payakumbuh, Mama Padang, Kakek Padang, Om Randa, and all the other handsome Ooms. And especially to the little funny and righteous boy, little brother Rasyid. May Allah shower His love upon all of you more and more. Ameen. YRA (Yaa Robbal 'Alamin).

Umpteenth Ielts test for Angel

Today, my beloved Angel took her IELTS test for the umpteenth time. This time, I felt exceptionally nervous. My mind was preoccupied with thoughts about her. Was she able to reach the test venue on time? There was a slight disturbance in the morning when my younger brother overslept and couldn't be reached through phone or WhatsApp. He was supposed to drive Angel in the morning. Fortunately, Angel managed to book a GoCar. Alhamdulillah.

It's already 11:34, which means the time allocated for the written test is about to end. Angel has her speaking test this afternoon. I sincerely hope she performs well. I pray to Allah to assist her and bless her with the desired score to secure the Letter of Acceptance (LoA) and scholarship. Ameen, may it be granted.

yes. I do believe that all of this is the best from Allah.

 Yeah, since the list of LN university for BPI was announced, hari-hari semakin terasa berat. Apalagi tanggal batas akhir pendaftaran lebih awal dari jadwal tes ielts yang coba kami daftar.

walau begitu, Alhamdulillah, kami sudah yakin benar bahwa ini yang terbaik dan akan ada saja jalannya Allah berikan.

Benar, saya tidak meragukan itu. sekali-kali tidak.

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Tapi, sebagai manusia lemmah dan biasa, saya sangat sedih dan lemas. Sedih karena jalan juang kembali sedikit berkabut. jalan juang kembali penuh dengan pendar-pendar cahaya silau sehingga belum jelas mau bagaimana. Hanya satu yang sudah jelas dan pasti, bahwa kami tetap harus Berjuang.

Lemas karena jalan yang dikira sudah lurus, harus berbelok-belok kembali. 

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ditambah dengan kenyataan yang tak sesuai dengan harapan. setelah dua kali berturut-turut mendapat pujian dari supervisor, saya akhirnya beranikan diri mencari "aktivitas", saya kabar kan pada teman dekat. ALhamdulillah mereka mendukung dan dengan penuh semangat memberikan support. dihari itu juga saya dihubungkan dengan koneksi yang dipunya. bertemu dengan saudara baru yang sangat baik dan berkenan berbagi tips dan cerita. Tapi apa daya, "aktivitas" ini tak menerima students deakin lagi karena satu dan lain hal.

dugh.... ujian hidup memang beragam bentuk dan macamnya.

dan pekan ini bergelayut sendu.

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Saya yakin sedih bukanlah dosa.

Maka dengan sabak kesedihan ini, saya bermohon kekuatan dan petunjuk cahaya terang dari Mu ya Rahman. 

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Allah itu selalu dan pasti Maha Adil.

contohnya di pekan ini semua bergantian silih berganti.

• Berkecamuk deadline hingga lost idea what to do hingga telat submit revisi.
• Galau dan deg deg an di diamkan oleh supervisor tak seperti biasanya.
• Beranikan diri dan pasrah ke ruangannya, alhamdulillah lancar dan mendapat respon positif untuk kali kedua.
• sedih mendapat kabar deakin pendidikan tak masuk lagi di list bpi lptk maupun pta.
  
• sedih ternyata jadwal batas akhir daftar bpi ln nya tutup lebih awal
• semangat nyari "aktivitas" dan dapat kemungkinan yang sangat pas dan ada teman-temannya.
• ditolak ndak bisa ikut "aktivitas" padahal ada lowongan namun terkait kebijakan kampusnya
• alhamdulillah gembira kumpul halal bihalal bersilaturrahim dengan kawan juang sesama phd deakin dan keluarganya. bertemu dan berbagi kabar-kabar hangat. Membuat semangat penuh kembali. mereka punya lika liku panjang perjuangan masing-masing.

sungguh memang sedih dan gembira dipergilirkan, dan nikmati saja sekedarnya. karena Allah tahu yang terbaik untuk kita.

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maaf sayang, jika mood abi saat telponan juga naik dan turun.
apa lagi juga aura disana gelap dan suram.

Ramadhan Kariim 1444H Di tanah Melbourne

 Alhamdulillah bisa merasakan bulan Ramadhan tahun ini. dan tidak terasa sudah masuk ke 10 malam terakhir. Ibadah masih terasa kurang. 

Ya Rabb izinkan hamba untuk dapat memaksimalkan ibadah di bulanMu yang mulia ini. Aamiinn YRA.

Sepertinya sudah mulai trend pula bahwa ramadhan tetap penuh dengan pekerjaan dan dedline-dedline. 

Entahlah dont know what to do. Should I ignore the deadline? 

Tapi tak semudah itu.

Dan akhirnya aku berdamai dengan keadaanku.

Pekerjaan dan deadline-deadline yang ada ini adalah dalam rangka beribadah padaMu ya Allah.

Karena memang ini semua harus dikerjakan dan waktunya pun berhimpitan.

Semoga Engkau ridhoi dan berkahi. Aamiin YRA.

Insya Allah aku sudah mendaftar untuk I'tikaf pekan ini, semoga dapat agak beberapa hari. AAMiiin.

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Tahun 2013 lalu berpuasa di benua eropa saat musim panas. Tahun ini alhamdulillah berpuasa di benua Australia di musim gugur. 

Beda-beda sensasinya.

Hal yang sangat disyukuri ditahun ini adalah adanya masjid kampus dan juga jadwal kuliah yang begitu fleksibel untuk PhD students. Akibatnya selalu dapat melaksanakan sholat jumat di masjid yang mana dahulu ketika di eropa masih ada bolong nya karena keadaan, jadwal, waktu, dan tempat yang tidak mengizinkan.

Saat ini pun yang membuat bahagia adalah bisa kapan saja melarikan diri ke masjid kampus jika sudah lelah dengan ramainya dunia.
Bisa menikmati toilet bersimbah air, yang merupakan nikmat tiada terkira. Bisa berwudhu tanpa rasa was-was dan sembunyi-sembunyi dan mengangkat kaki ke westafel, sebab di masjid kampus disediakan tempat berwudhu yang sangat proper.

Ya.... setiap masa dan keadaan ada kelebihan dan kekuranganyya. ada hikmah nya sendiri-sendiri.

dan aku mensyukuri semua itu. Alhamdulillah.

Istimewa ramadhan tahun ini juga adalah karena saya dan anak istri terpisah jarak dan waktu. Acapkali kami harus melakukan silent Video call. karena jam di melbourne sudah menunjukkan pukul 00.00 sedangkan anak2 ada pada jam paling aktifnya sebelum tidur. sehingga videcall dengan semangat.

Ya Allah, semoga RedhoMU membawa kami segera berkumpul kembali bersama-sama di Melbourne ini. AAMiiin YRA,.

Finally, athe D-day coming. flying to Melbourne via Jakarta Sydney.

Akhirnya  datanglah hari H. 

Rasanya entah apalah...... 

Harus pergi meninggalkan orang-orang tersayang. 

Yg setelah "pengumuman jumat siang", Ketidakpastian kapan Angel dan anak2 menyusul semakin perlu perjuangan lebih banyak lagi. (Tapi ane yakin insya Allah, Angel can manage to make it happen). 

Bagi uda Aqsho and Adek Rasyid, hari hari menjelang keberangkatan, mungkin terkesan biasa. Kecuali kunjungan kami ke trans studio mini yg 2 kali dalam sepekan. 

Entah mereka sadar atau tidak sang Abimennya sering menatap dalam wajah mereka. Karena dalam waktu berbulan kedepan, mungkin abimen belum dapat menatap langsung mereka. 

On the D-day morning, adek rasyid datang ke kamar saat ane sedang sibuk print2 berkas. Ia datang sambil membawa catur magnet dan berkata: " Abi.. Main catur magnet yok! Tapi abi sedang kerja kerja ya..?, tak apa lah, adek main sama nenek aja dulu"

Degh.... Ya Allah. 

Maaf abi belum bisa main catur magnet pagi itu ya nak. Masih ada dokumen ygesti abi print, sebelum siap2 ke bandara. 

Semoga sehat selalu dan jadi anak sholeh ya sayang. 

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Uda Aqsho makin ganteng. 

Ane sempatkan mengukur berat 

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Ronal Rifandi 34 th

Berat badan: 80 kg. 

Yosi Laila Rahmi

(Ga sempat nimbang, Angel lagi riweh nyetrikain baju ane and nyiapin keberangkatan ke Bim). 

The beauty of batuks

 sudah hampir 1 bulan mengalami batuk terus menerus. sepertinya ini gejala omicron.

Hmmm,... awalnya hanya ane yang batuk dan demam, lalu masuk minggu ketiga mulai diikuti oleh anggota keluarga. sehingga kami mengalami batuk serumah.

Yang paling kasihan itu lihat AoM dan anak-anak. semoga lekas sembuh dan Allah berikan kesembuhan maksimal. Aamiin YRA

working from home to a new normal

I am grateful to Allah who guide me in all of my way.

I still remember when I decided to calling back my family to Padang before the semi Lockdown was applied in west sumatera province due to the spread out of covid 19.

I am not regret it, it is worthy enough to make my WFH life wonderful.

Yes indeed, my emotional expressions are vary, sometimes up and down during the wfh coz I could not focus on doing my job. You know, two little active and cute boys around.

Many times I should go to Lubuk buaya to do the office work.

After all, its worthy enough. I enjoyed it very much and still for the next days...

I have more time with the family, I learn many things around them.

I realised that I am not that good as a husband and as a father and as a son in law. However, you know me so well right? I am kinda person who always give my best effort in pursuing my goal when I have decide to do something. 

And I decided to be a husband, a father and a son in law in a good way, then let the universe see that I will fight till my last breath to pursue it.

Although, there may be many troubles around the journey :).

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Hokkeh, a new normal era is implemented now. Started from 5 june 2020, I back to campus and start working from office with the health protocol. Bismillah.

Flu singapur dan hidup penuh hikmah

Hmm... Hari2 yang berat. Ketika kedua buah hati kena flu singapur (kata dokternya)

Allah itu selalu Maha Tahu dan Maha Baik.
Maka jangan pernah berputus asa ataupun berburuk sangka atas apa yg kita alami.

Misalnya, kami ingin ummy lulus PKBI nya ke Bandung. Tapi Allah takdirkan lulus nya ke Malang. Alhamdulillah.
Banyak hikmah... Diantaranya sudah Allah tampakkan, dan banyak lagi yang masih berupa rahasia. Semoga kami tawakkal dan optimis untuk menemukan hikmahnya tsb.

Kami ingin berangkatnya hari Rabu. Tapi tiba-tiba dapan sms dari maskapai, klo salah satu flight nya di batalkan. Pas hubungi CS kami reschedule menjadi hari kamis gratis.
Allah itu Maha Tahu apa yang terbaik buat kita. Beberapa hikmah kejadian yg ini sdh kami rasakan dan kami bersyukur sekali atas penundaan ini. Tak lama setelah bayar tiket pesawat dan hotel, anak-anak sakit dan ternyata dapat flu singapur. Jadi kami punya waktu untuk berobat dan memulihkannya dulu. (Semoga Allah pulihkan menjelang hari keberangkatan, Amiin). Hikmah lainnya, kami jadi punya waktu tambahan untuk persiapan.

Begitulah, pasti ada hikmah untuk semua yg terjadi. Dan saya selalu Yakin. Bahwa semua yg terjadi adalah yang terbaik dari Allah untuk kita.

Trying to be a good father

Alhamdulillah, genap 3 minggu usia Rasyid dan sebelumnya pas 3 tahun usia Aqsha.

Hidup memang penuh warna.

Dan suka duka Allah pergilirkan.
Bersyukur untuk semua yg Allah anugrahkan.
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#aqiqahRasyid

Beda sensasi ketika dulu aqsha aqiqah di payakumbuh.
Sedangkan Rasyid d Padang.

Kali ini, pengalaman pertama ku menjadi host di sebuah acara yg mengundang orang banyak.

Ya, menjadi tuan rumah.

Mengurus ini dan itu nya.
Merasakan setiap jengkal kepusingan saat mempersiapkannya.

Memantap2 kan hati dan mengingat2 kan jiwa ini untuk yakin dan percaya pada pertolongan Allah. Everything will be ok .

Alhamdulillah finally its done.

Barakalloh

Submitting students mark

Alhamdulillah finally its done already. This semester is officially finished :)

Although i should stay a bit longer in the office. Until 21.04 wib.

Oh ya.. started from this thursday... I have been joined with AMT of stkip adzkia

Its nice to see and reflect our self based on expert guidance. The phsycholog was conducted an attractive training, so far.

But you know, i am not really a 100% in on this event, because some part of my mind still think about the time that i should spend with my little fam.

Hmmm...

Hokkeh. Just enjoy it ... Jho.

And Alhamdulillah my AoM are also preparing ielts in deakin unp program. Do the best honey.

And i will focua on Budi LN scholarship aplication... (Soon)

two years old... My Boy Shalahuddin Alaqsha Rifandi

Alhamdulillah...

Puji Syukur tiada terkira pada Mu Ya Rabb..

Yang segala permohonan hanya kepadMu kami tumpukan.

Two years already, the baby is growing up, and now, he become a little son.
he already now what he want, what he dont want and he can communicate it with people around.

Each moment we have together are very valuable, and not all of them can be written on this blog. But absolutely, it will remain in my memory clearly insya Allah.

Dear AoM, thank you very much for your strength, for your belief that you can give the ASI for two years.

Alhamdulillah, we can stop the ASI immediately on 17 of february 2018. Its funny, to see how Aqsha responded on this separation :D :D :D
"Atchoo.. mimik.. mimi aak"

Hehe...

When I flash back to the moment two years ago, the waiting time for aqsho's birth day were also the time when I give my Total Commitment to the way I walked in now. YUPS.. Aqsho's Age also mean the age of my commitment for this WAY. :)

Insya Allah.

Happy milad my dear. I love you.

conflict of interest between orang kecil and orang besar

Ah.. menjadi orang tua itu memanglah sulit..


Karena ia tak hanya tentang cerita senang-senang belaka.

misalnya ketika kita sudah lelah seharian bekerja dan berurusan... dan si buah hati pun malam hari masih punya energi yang banyak untuk bermain. dan maunya bermain bersama kita...

Walhasil...

kepentingan untuk istirahat berhadapan dengan kemauan si raja kecil untuk ditemani main...

Dan siapa kah yang menang?????


:D
Thank you Aom and Nenek

dear Aqsha

Shalahuddin Alaqsha Rifandi,


Hari hari yang penuh kebahagian bersamamu Nak..

dan tak terasa, engkau membesar dan membesar, makin lincah dan cerdas.

Tak terbayang nanti jika kamu sudah benar- benar besar...


Ah.. mari nak kita nikmati saja dulu masa-masa kecil mu ini.

kadang sempat ku berpikir, kala bersamamu.... "jangan lah terlalu cepat waktu mengantarmu besar..."


Abi masih mau bermanja-manja bersamamu...

:) :)

semoga jadi anak yang saleh

A lovely smile in the first of January 2018

January, the first

2018

Pagi-pagi buru-buru siap2 untuk mengantar mentariku pergi kegiatan Latansa di Tiger camp.  Doi sempat kurang semangat karena minim tidur sebab anak bujang nempel terus semalaman.

Suasana pun sedikit mendung dan bahkan gerimis.

But... karena sudah diniatkan pergi, maka doi tetap ke lokasi.
Kutinggalkan ia dengan pesan, "Sayang, nanti kalo pusing, bilang kurang sehat saja ke panitia, yang penting kita hadir memenuhi taklimat"....

teng tengg.... dan daku pun pergi.


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Lama sekali rasanya hari ini berlalu dan sms minta segera dijemputpun masuk.

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Tarraa.....
Subhanallah...

Belum sempat matikan mesin motor, ane sudah disambut dengan senyuman dan lambaian tangan bersemangat, sambil "mengaum" lucu...

dan mengalirlah cerita penuh semangat sepanjang jalan pulang dan setelahnya dan setelahnya...

ALhamdulillah...

Semangat yang berkobar juga menular...

Senang sekali melihatmu tersenyum dan penuh semangat Dinda....
hmmm... serasa dunia ini semua bisa ku genggam :) karena ada kamu yang bersemangat bersamaku

Barakalloh.

Terimakasih dakwah...
Terimakasih Ya Allah

A word named Rindu

One of the most beautiful parts of loving someone special is the "Rindu"

No matter how much I push my self to agree on what I wrote in another blog several days ago, I still remain unsure about this feeling. Yup "Rindu".
I stated that 1 to 2 days of gathering could give me power for 2 following months. oh came on, That is just a placebo.

The point is not about the melancholic things, yes indeed in some parts, but for me it reflects one eternal truth about my life. That I couldn't stand alone. I need these people around me. Very near to me that I can hug them whenever I want, that I can be with them whatever my condition is. That I can hear their voices, that I can support them with all of mine.

Yet, in the reality, this may differ due to many reasons. Like what I have experienced now. Being apart for three months for improving my IELTS skills. Until now, this is the very long separation phase of me and the family. (it still about 2 months remaining).

I just wondering about the next journey. How it will be?
This IELTS things will relate to my PhD plan. I insists to go abroad for continuing my study, insya Allah. I have already searched some possible destination and predicted the preparation process which I need to focus on. Even, I created some thought calculation in my mind about the financial, the time, the scenario... But all of it still seems fussy for me. On the one hand, when the warrior side of me are arise, I will let those things as a trigger to increase my efforts. On the other hand, when the weak opposition of me took over my mind, it seems that the journey are too long and more likely to be impossible. Yeah.. it is normal right, the feeling of up and down.

Not only do the selection to get a scholarship is hard, but also the other linked things of it are amusing.

However, thanks that I have God and believe in HIM, as usual. And its a relief that my special one is also a person who really believes on the power of God. Therefore, my job now is making this sacrifice, the separation, valuable. Studying hard, getting  a high score, applying for the scholarships, improving the research proposal and relating stuffs, searching for the universities, finishing the tasks for both the official and the unofficial and of course praying even harder. 

I like the sentences below:

"You only need to try hard and to give your best, and Let HE Finishes in HIS Way. Everything has already written in the Lauh Mahfudz. You don't need to worry that much. As long as you fulfill the reason to win, then the result will not cheat the process."

Insya Allah, everything will be OK

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Miss you Aom, Miss you Aqsha...
I love you All.

Dear Aom, let us give our best yach.. Insya Allah we will pursue our PhD abroad.. together.