Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Thursday, January 11, 2024

Fighting with myself

Believe it or not, these days I feel that i should fight with myself.

Because it seems that lazyness has occupied my mind. 

yeah, I can blame other things or make excuses for it. But, i realise that it is me, my self that cannot organise my time well.

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Honestly, I am currently at the stage of struggling with my research planning and progress.

I have two supervisors that are very nice and full of encouragement. I am feel sorry for them, because my progress is still left behind. They are always kindly support me to deal with everything.
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Now, the time is limited. And many things to be done.

Bismillah...

No more "I will do it later"
No more too much thinking and thinking and thinking.

just write it done now, right now.


:D :D :D

I can do it. insya Allah.
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Dear Allah, please help me to deal with these all.
I beg you for the whole of my life.
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And of course, I have a very happy life here, with my lovely wife and sons. 
Don't know what to do if they are not here :D

Thank you :D

Monday, November 20, 2023

Rindu

 Ah....

Hanya berpisah jarak antara rumah, sekolah dan kampus.


tapi rindunya kagak nahan.

Mungkin karena banyak waktu yang 2 bulan ini dihabiskan bersama dengan mereka.

love them so much. Alhamdulillah.

Semoga jadi anak-anak yang sehat dan sholeh


Sunday, November 12, 2023

Notable Moments, Syukur Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah, it's been nearly two months since my family joined me here in Melbourne, specifically on November 14, 2023. Uda Aqsho has been attending NPPS and TPA Madania for about a month now. Alhamdulillah, we've achieved a lot, and all credit goes to Allah. I'm truly grateful for everything. We've faced various challenges together, and remarkably, we've managed to navigate them with joy


Some notable moments that I want to capture in this post are:

1. Adek Rasyid has started his preparatory school session at NPPS.

Actually, the school was supposed to begin for him next year, and we initially planned to enroll him closer to the commencement date. However, Allah guided us to expedite the process. His ways are always unpredictable. During a family gathering event, some friends discussed children and their schooling with Ummi. They suggested that we should start enrolling Rasyid early because schools sometimes have limited seats. At that time, I had intended to postpone it until I finished my revision (which seems to be an endless revision cycle :D), but Ummi was eager to do it as soon as possible. So, we went to the school with the required documents (which I had prepared following Uda Aqsho's documents).

Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akbar! The day we went to the school happened to be the last week before the "once a week" session started. Allahu Akbar. It turns out there are four sessions that parents and children who will join the preparatory school next year should attend. Alhamdulillah, we were able to be a part of it. Fortunately, Allah provided guidance through Ummi's friends. Thank you, Allah, and thank you to those kind-hearted people.

The enrollment process has been very easy and straightforward, Alhamdulillah.


2. Ummi has finally managed to secure a Letter of Acceptance (LOA) from Monash University and a scholarship from LPDP. 

This is a truly joyful moment after a long and challenging journey. Securing the LOA and scholarship is crucial for our family, as without these two things, we wouldn't know what to do. Honestly, up until now, we still don't have any other options. We literally don't know how Ummi would stay here in Melbourne without the scholarship and LOA.

Syukur Alhamdulillah. Thank you to everybody who has contributed to this achievement. May Allah reward you abundantly. Ameen YRA

3. Uda Aqsha was recognized as the best student for year 2 in this period.

One day this week, I picked up Uda Aqsha as usual. He approached me with his prestigious smile and showed me a card in his hand. The home-teacher had written appreciative words about Aqsha, highlighting his responsibility and hard work in completing all of his school assignments. I commended him for it and created an Instagram reel to document his reaction. Then, unexpectedly, Ummi connected with another Indonesian parent at NPPS who conveyed congratulations through WhatsApp. She mentioned that Aqsha was chosen as the best student for this period. Typically, there is an evaluation for each period, and the best students from each class are announced and recognized during the joint student meeting in the school hall.

Masha Allah, thank you, my diligent boy. I am reminded of the time when discussing school was a forbidden topic, even back in Indonesia because he didn't want to attend school in Melbourne. The period before starting school was a challenging and worrisome time for our family. On one hand, I felt compassion for Aqsha, who was about to face an unfamiliar school environment with limited English proficiency. However, Allah paved the way for His blessings. Since the first day, Aqsho has consistently gone to and from school with enthusiasm. Alhamdulillah.

Oh, there's a secret of Allah's love behind this achievement. Before this, Uda Aqsha participated in a class meeting activity at his school. He had put in effort but hadn't won yet. At home, Ummi said he was very sad, even to the point of tears, wondering why he never won any competitions. This was the case back when he was at Adzkia too, despite his sincere efforts. We comforted him, and it turns out Allah comforted him with this achievement. Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akbar.

And there's more to share; I will update you in future posts, insha Allah.

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Now, please keep me in your prayers as I strive to excel in my revision. The deadline is approaching."

Monday, June 19, 2023

New level of Vid Call


 What a joyful video call! Even though I am still struggling to meet my proposal writing target, spending time looking at you and talking with you has lifted my spirits. Hopefully, it will also inspire me to come up with beautiful sentences to write.

I am confident that, with the help of God, I can manage to complete it. I will give it my best effort to make it as good as I can. Oh, I apologize for the mistake in my previous statement. It's not about being good, but for now, it just about finishing it to the best of my abilities..

Friday, June 16, 2023

Alhamdulillah, Uda Aqsho managed to finish his first year of elementary school

 Alhamdulillah, today is the day for picking up the final report for my oldest son from SD IT Adzkia. I am extremely proud of him, especially considering he successfully completed his first year of elementary school. All praise be to Allah. I also want to express my heartfelt appreciation to my dearest AoM. I understand the challenges you have faced, particularly over the past four months. My love, you have done an outstanding job and achieved something truly valuable. I deeply appreciate your efforts, and may Allah grant you the best rewards for your hard work.

This is certainly not an easy task, as things are no longer the same as before. Uda will indeed experience some changes, as his ustadzah mentioned to you. However, with the help of Allah, we will strive to overcome these challenges and make Uda's journey more joyful. Our goal is to instill in him a strong spirit for learning, resilience against negative influences from his peers, and to raise him as a better son—an anak soleh.

Thank you for being our best support systems. Mama Payakumbuh, Mama Padang, Kakek Padang, Om Randa, and all the other handsome Ooms. And especially to the little funny and righteous boy, little brother Rasyid. May Allah shower His love upon all of you more and more. Ameen. YRA (Yaa Robbal 'Alamin).

Thursday, June 15, 2023

Umpteenth Ielts test for Angel

Today, my beloved Angel took her IELTS test for the umpteenth time. This time, I felt exceptionally nervous. My mind was preoccupied with thoughts about her. Was she able to reach the test venue on time? There was a slight disturbance in the morning when my younger brother overslept and couldn't be reached through phone or WhatsApp. He was supposed to drive Angel in the morning. Fortunately, Angel managed to book a GoCar. Alhamdulillah.

It's already 11:34, which means the time allocated for the written test is about to end. Angel has her speaking test this afternoon. I sincerely hope she performs well. I pray to Allah to assist her and bless her with the desired score to secure the Letter of Acceptance (LoA) and scholarship. Ameen, may it be granted.


Friday, May 05, 2023

yes. I do believe that all of this is the best from Allah.

 Yeah, since the list of LN university for BPI was announced, hari-hari semakin terasa berat. Apalagi tanggal batas akhir pendaftaran lebih awal dari jadwal tes ielts yang coba kami daftar.

walau begitu, Alhamdulillah, kami sudah yakin benar bahwa ini yang terbaik dan akan ada saja jalannya Allah berikan.

Benar, saya tidak meragukan itu. sekali-kali tidak.

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Tapi, sebagai manusia lemmah dan biasa, saya sangat sedih dan lemas. Sedih karena jalan juang kembali sedikit berkabut. jalan juang kembali penuh dengan pendar-pendar cahaya silau sehingga belum jelas mau bagaimana. Hanya satu yang sudah jelas dan pasti, bahwa kami tetap harus Berjuang.

Lemas karena jalan yang dikira sudah lurus, harus berbelok-belok kembali. 

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ditambah dengan kenyataan yang tak sesuai dengan harapan. setelah dua kali berturut-turut mendapat pujian dari supervisor, saya akhirnya beranikan diri mencari "aktivitas", saya kabar kan pada teman dekat. ALhamdulillah mereka mendukung dan dengan penuh semangat memberikan support. dihari itu juga saya dihubungkan dengan koneksi yang dipunya. bertemu dengan saudara baru yang sangat baik dan berkenan berbagi tips dan cerita. Tapi apa daya, "aktivitas" ini tak menerima students deakin lagi karena satu dan lain hal.

dugh.... ujian hidup memang beragam bentuk dan macamnya.

dan pekan ini bergelayut sendu.

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Saya yakin sedih bukanlah dosa.

Maka dengan sabak kesedihan ini, saya bermohon kekuatan dan petunjuk cahaya terang dari Mu ya Rahman. 

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Allah itu selalu dan pasti Maha Adil.

contohnya di pekan ini semua bergantian silih berganti.

  • Berkecamuk deadline hingga lost idea what to do hingga telat submit revisi.
  • Galau dan deg deg an di diamkan oleh supervisor tak seperti biasanya.
  • Beranikan diri dan pasrah ke ruangannya, alhamdulillah lancar dan mendapat respon positif untuk kali kedua.
  • sedih mendapat kabar deakin pendidikan tak masuk lagi di list bpi lptk maupun pta.
  • sedih ternyata jadwal batas akhir daftar bpi ln nya tutup lebih awal
  • semangat nyari "aktivitas" dan dapat kemungkinan yang sangat pas dan ada teman-temannya.
  • ditolak ndak bisa ikut "aktivitas" padahal ada lowongan namun terkait kebijakan kampusnya
  • alhamdulillah gembira kumpul halal bihalal bersilaturrahim dengan kawan juang sesama phd deakin dan keluarganya. bertemu dan berbagi kabar-kabar hangat. Membuat semangat penuh kembali. mereka punya lika liku panjang perjuangan masing-masing.
sungguh memang sedih dan gembira dipergilirkan, dan nikmati saja sekedarnya. karena Allah tahu yang terbaik untuk kita.

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maaf sayang, jika mood abi saat telponan juga naik dan turun.
apa lagi juga aura disana gelap dan suram.

Wednesday, April 12, 2023

Ramadhan Kariim 1444H Di tanah Melbourne

 Alhamdulillah bisa merasakan bulan Ramadhan tahun ini. dan tidak terasa sudah masuk ke 10 malam terakhir. Ibadah masih terasa kurang. 

Ya Rabb izinkan hamba untuk dapat memaksimalkan ibadah di bulanMu yang mulia ini. Aamiinn YRA.

Sepertinya sudah mulai trend pula bahwa ramadhan tetap penuh dengan pekerjaan dan dedline-dedline. 

Entahlah dont know what to do. Should I ignore the deadline? 

Tapi tak semudah itu.

Dan akhirnya aku berdamai dengan keadaanku.

Pekerjaan dan deadline-deadline yang ada ini adalah dalam rangka beribadah padaMu ya Allah.

Karena memang ini semua harus dikerjakan dan waktunya pun berhimpitan.

Semoga Engkau ridhoi dan berkahi. Aamiin YRA.

Insya Allah aku sudah mendaftar untuk I'tikaf pekan ini, semoga dapat agak beberapa hari. AAMiiin.

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Tahun 2013 lalu berpuasa di benua eropa saat musim panas. Tahun ini alhamdulillah berpuasa di benua Australia di musim gugur. 

Beda-beda sensasinya.

Hal yang sangat disyukuri ditahun ini adalah adanya masjid kampus dan juga jadwal kuliah yang begitu fleksibel untuk PhD students. Akibatnya selalu dapat melaksanakan sholat jumat di masjid yang mana dahulu ketika di eropa masih ada bolong nya karena keadaan, jadwal, waktu, dan tempat yang tidak mengizinkan.

Saat ini pun yang membuat bahagia adalah bisa kapan saja melarikan diri ke masjid kampus jika sudah lelah dengan ramainya dunia.
Bisa menikmati toilet bersimbah air, yang merupakan nikmat tiada terkira. Bisa berwudhu tanpa rasa was-was dan sembunyi-sembunyi dan mengangkat kaki ke westafel, sebab di masjid kampus disediakan tempat berwudhu yang sangat proper.

Ya.... setiap masa dan keadaan ada kelebihan dan kekuranganyya. ada hikmah nya sendiri-sendiri.

dan aku mensyukuri semua itu. Alhamdulillah.

Istimewa ramadhan tahun ini juga adalah karena saya dan anak istri terpisah jarak dan waktu. Acapkali kami harus melakukan silent Video call. karena jam di melbourne sudah menunjukkan pukul 00.00 sedangkan anak2 ada pada jam paling aktifnya sebelum tidur. sehingga videcall dengan semangat.

Ya Allah, semoga RedhoMU membawa kami segera berkumpul kembali bersama-sama di Melbourne ini. AAMiiin YRA,.

Thursday, February 16, 2023

Pernak Pernik Padang-Jakarta-Sydney-Melbourne #PhDJourney #PhDLife (Part 1)

13 February 2023

Padang - Jakarta dan air mata yang tertahan

Ini adalah judul yang tepat.
Banyak hal yang belum bisa dilakukan dengan sempurna layaknya perpisahan epik di depan pintu bandara. sampai-sampai ane tak sempat ambil foto hanya berempat, tak sempat berfoto kece berdua. Tak sempat foto berdua dengan hamdi. (walau kami banyak berfoto sih, tapi hanya random dan beramai-ramai saja) apatah lagi membuat foto ala-ala yang bisa diedit dan modif sehingga seperti photo viral di tiktok dan IG. Harusnya juga ada foto berkonsep ini dan itu... Tapi apalah daya. seorang overthinking dan creamy yummy penuh keringat ini. apalagi sedang nyantai keluar lagi setelah check in, mendengar panggilan toa menyebutkan Kode penerbangan ane diminta segera bla bla. Buru buru masuk lagi deh. Padahal ternyat baru disuruh masuk ruang tunggu bandara.

Payah diri ini menahan air mata. sejenak semrawut pikiran tentang lautan luas kehidupan esok sirna dari kepala. Hanya dipenuhi melankolis bayangan rindu dan melankolis tentang Angel, aqsho, rasyid. Dahulu saat ke belanda juga demikian. tapi entah kenapa sekarang sangat-sangat lah berat rasanya, berkali-kali lipat. Mungkin karena mereka adalah bagian jiwa ku yang tak terpisahkan. Rasa sebagian tubuh ku yang badagok (gemuk kata mi band7- red) ini berubah menjadi ruang kosong nan hampa. Itu juga mungkin mengapa saat proses timbang kemaren berat ku mencapai 79 koma an. saking tak percaya nya maka saya menimbang sampai 3 kali. dan sepertinya timbangan tersebut juga galau. ketiga hasilnya berbeda. 79 koma ada 2 buah dan 80 koma ada satu buah. Biasanya sih 83 an ke atas.

okeh....
Karena overthinking ttg bagasi saat check in jadi lupa minta posisi faforit dekat jendela, Hingga pas penerbangan ini dapatnya di posisi tengah. untung diapit oleh dua bapak2 parah baya. Satu pak aji yang tertidur. Satu lagi bapak-bapak bermasker yang tak banyak kata. I like it so much. Kita hanya berbagi senyum sesaat dan ane kembali khusuk dalam penahanan air mata.

Nyampe Soetta, walau diterpa rindu perpisahan, ane si logis substantif dan berpikir jauh kedepan (saking jauh nya jadi  gimana gituuuu), harus fokus mencari dimana lah letak terminal keberangkatan internasional. Tanda yang ada hanya menunjukkan pada terminal keberangkatan domestik.. degh.... mulai lah pusing. bolak balik satu ketukan, beranikan diri bertanya pada cs. dia bilang dilantai 2 pak naik lift ini.

nah si mas nya nunjuk ke lift yang jelas-jelas tertulis disana lantai 2 menuju keberangkatan domestik. Aku si logis, dan berpegang pada hal yang terpampang jelas, mulai ragu.. Jelas-jelas itu tulisan nya domestik, yang saya tanya internasional....... baa lah apak cs ko ko. Itu yang ada dalam pikiran ane. 

Ane pun tak langsung naik lift, masih berutar dulu satu ketukan lagi mencari-cari penanda untuk "keberangkatan internasional". Dari sudut jiwa ini ada yang berbisik. "Hi ronal coba kamu ikuti saja saran seorang keturunan nabi adam tadi. Dia adalah mahluk hidup yang telah bekerja disini sehingga pasti tahu kondisi lapangan ini dibanding dengan Mahluk mati yang berupa tulisan "Lt 2 keberangkatan domestik".

Oke lah. Bismilah. 
antri lah daku di depan lift tsb dengan troli berisi dua koper, satu 29 inchi dan satunya koper 20 inchi.plus ransel. Dan setelah sampai di lt 2, ku mantapkan kaki untuk menemui petugas berseragam yang bukan CS. dan kutanya padanya, ehternyata iya, Kebernagkatan Internasional juga di lantai 2, tapi sono an dikit. 

Alamaaak. Ampun kan Baim Ya Alloh.
Maafkan ane ya MAs CS, sempat meragukanmu.

Pelajarannya adalah "kadang berhenti sebentar dengan logika logis mu, banyak hal luar biasa diluar itu".

Kembali aku beristigfar dan tersadar, mungkin aku terlalu larut, sehingga lupa, bukan kah Alloh yang meluluskan ku di program ini. Bukankah Ia pula yang membuatku berangkat hari ini. Maka mengapa aku begitu pusing dengan pikiran-pikiran jauh yang melelahkan.

Maka saat itu aku mulai menerima kondisi dan menyunggingkan senyum dibibirku. ku ucap nama Rabb ku dan ku langkahkan kaki mencari dimana konter check in Qantas berada. Suasana ramai, kermaian yang membuatku iri. ya, ada yang sepuh, ada yang muda, ada anak-anak, ada remaja, berseragam batik beraneka corak... Rombongan jamaah umrah. Impian ku yang insya Allah akan ku kejar. bismillah, semoga tahun ini atau besok Allah beri jalan untuk umrah bareng mama. Aamiiin YRA.

dan tarrraaa.... check in dah gua. kali ini karena pikiran sudah jernih, maka langsung memainkan permintaan untuk duduk di dekat jendela. yuhuuu... berhasil. 


JAKARTA SYDNEY
>>>>>>>>> next post insya Allah





Saturday, December 11, 2021

Doaku untukmu Sayang...

 


Hari ini tepatnya siang nanti, adalah ujian sesi terakhir dalam perjalanan panjang seleksi cpns untuk AoM di tahun ini. Dan semoga ini adalah seleksi cpns terakhir yang diikutinya dan mendapatkan kelulusan.

walau hari ini sangatlah penting, ku mohon maaf tak bisa di dekatmu untuk persiapannya, karena disaat yang sama tugas negara dan bangsa ini minta untuk ditunaikan pula. dan sudah deadline. As you know lah... Deadlineders. Bukan sengaja atau gimana... memanglah semua dikerjakan pada waktunya, hari kemaren, yg lain pula yang sudah diujung waktu, kemarennya lagi ada pula yang lain. Ah... dinikmati saja.
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Pagi ini dapat chat kiriman seperti foto di atas.
Dan ya kutuliskan disini, Biar Uda Aqsha, Uda Rasyid, beserta adeknya (jika ada) dan anak cucuku Bani Rifandi nanti bisa melihat rekam jejak ini.

ada satu pelajaran yang Abi dapatkan melalui sosmed, kajian dari seorang ustadz, tentang doa.
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Maka, doaku untukmu AoM  bukanlah hanya doa untuk yang diberikan yang terbaik.
Uda berdoa agar Dinda berhasil sukses ujian dan lulus menjadi CPNS. Uda meminta kepada Allah, agar Dinda Allah luluskan menjadi PNS.
Karena disitulah rukun pertama "Roja" dalam berdoa. Berharap dengan sangat kepada Allah SWT.

Uda berdoa dengan sungguh-sungguh dan memacu Dinda untuk berusaha, tak lain tak bukan, untuk memnuhi rukun kedua yaitu "Khouf". Takut.
Takut kepada Allah, takut Ia tak mengabulkan doa-doa kita, maka dengan perasaan ini Uda berdoa.

Insya Allah kita akan siap menerima hasilnya, dengan tawakkal dan cinta kepada Allah, Insya Allah.




Selamat ujian Micro Teaching my dearest AoM

Padang, 11 Desember 2021

Tuesday, July 24, 2018

Again... A matter of communication

Hmm....

When we communicate with somebody else, we have to assure that the message we delivered is received correctly by the person. If it is not, it may lead to (in a serious case) conflict between us and the person.

In condition if the conflict occur, we should take at least one of these treatments. First,keep calm and take a deep breath, put and drive  your mind to take a positive thinking side. Then, you restate and deliver again your message to ask confirmation. Second, keep calm and take a deep breath, put and drive your mind to take a positive thingking side. Then try to stop talking and just listening to your speaking partner. Hopefully by doing this you will get the point that ahaaaa... Actually both of you are not exactly conflict each other but it only about misscommunication.

:)

Friday, February 23, 2018

two years old... My Boy Shalahuddin Alaqsha Rifandi

Alhamdulillah...

Puji Syukur tiada terkira pada Mu Ya Rabb..

Yang segala permohonan hanya kepadMu kami tumpukan.

Two years already, the baby is growing up, and now, he become a little son.
he already now what he want, what he dont want and he can communicate it with people around.

Each moment we have together are very valuable, and not all of them can be written on this blog. But absolutely, it will remain in my memory clearly insya Allah.

Dear AoM, thank you very much for your strength, for your belief that you can give the ASI for two years.

Alhamdulillah, we can stop the ASI immediately on 17 of february 2018. Its funny, to see how Aqsha responded on this separation :D :D :D
"Atchoo.. mimik.. mimi aak"

Hehe...

When I flash back to the moment two years ago, the waiting time for aqsho's birth day were also the time when I give my Total Commitment to the way I walked in now. YUPS.. Aqsho's Age also mean the age of my commitment for this WAY. :)

Insya Allah.

Happy milad my dear. I love you.

Friday, January 19, 2018

conflict of interest between orang kecil and orang besar

Ah.. menjadi orang tua itu memanglah sulit..


Karena ia tak hanya tentang cerita senang-senang belaka.

misalnya ketika kita sudah lelah seharian bekerja dan berurusan... dan si buah hati pun malam hari masih punya energi yang banyak untuk bermain. dan maunya bermain bersama kita...

Walhasil...

kepentingan untuk istirahat berhadapan dengan kemauan si raja kecil untuk ditemani main...

Dan siapa kah yang menang?????


:D
Thank you Aom and Nenek

Wednesday, January 03, 2018

A lovely smile in the first of January 2018

January, the first
2018

Pagi-pagi buru-buru siap2 untuk mengantar mentariku pergi kegiatan Latansa di Tiger camp.  Doi sempat kurang semangat karena minim tidur sebab anak bujang nempel terus semalaman.

Suasana pun sedikit mendung dan bahkan gerimis.

But... karena sudah diniatkan pergi, maka doi tetap ke lokasi.
Kutinggalkan ia dengan pesan, "Sayang, nanti kalo pusing, bilang kurang sehat saja ke panitia, yang penting kita hadir memenuhi taklimat"....

teng tengg.... dan daku pun pergi.


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Lama sekali rasanya hari ini berlalu dan sms minta segera dijemputpun masuk.

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Tarraa.....
Subhanallah...

Belum sempat matikan mesin motor, ane sudah disambut dengan senyuman dan lambaian tangan bersemangat, sambil "mengaum" lucu...

dan mengalirlah cerita penuh semangat sepanjang jalan pulang dan setelahnya dan setelahnya...

ALhamdulillah...

Semangat yang berkobar juga menular...

Senang sekali melihatmu tersenyum dan penuh semangat Dinda....
hmmm... serasa dunia ini semua bisa ku genggam :) karena ada kamu yang bersemangat bersamaku

Barakalloh.

Terimakasih dakwah...
Terimakasih Ya Allah

Tuesday, January 02, 2018

Alhamdulillah 7,5

Finally ... its all done.

We dont know at the beginning how to deal with the condition....

But as I always believe that if Allah Has chosen such a condition for us, then He Absolutely Has a great plan for that. Our duty is only to fight hard and pray even harder.

and now, the almost three months of IELTS has been finished and the result is awesome I got 7.5 what a wonderful achievement.

ALHAMDULILLAH ALLAHU AKBAR.

Thanks for all.
especially for my dear AoM and Aqsha and also the greatest Moms in the world. Love you Full.

Wednesday, November 01, 2017

A word named Rindu

One of the most beautiful parts of loving someone special is the "Rindu"

No matter how much I push my self to agree on what I wrote in another blog several days ago, I still remain unsure about this feeling. Yup "Rindu".
I stated that 1 to 2 days of gathering could give me power for 2 following months. oh came on, That is just a placebo.

The point is not about the melancholic things, yes indeed in some parts, but for me it reflects one eternal truth about my life. That I couldn't stand alone. I need these people around me. Very near to me that I can hug them whenever I want, that I can be with them whatever my condition is. That I can hear their voices, that I can support them with all of mine.

Yet, in the reality, this may differ due to many reasons. Like what I have experienced now. Being apart for three months for improving my IELTS skills. Until now, this is the very long separation phase of me and the family. (it still about 2 months remaining).

I just wondering about the next journey. How it will be?
This IELTS things will relate to my PhD plan. I insists to go abroad for continuing my study, insya Allah. I have already searched some possible destination and predicted the preparation process which I need to focus on. Even, I created some thought calculation in my mind about the financial, the time, the scenario... But all of it still seems fussy for me. On the one hand, when the warrior side of me are arise, I will let those things as a trigger to increase my efforts. On the other hand, when the weak opposition of me took over my mind, it seems that the journey are too long and more likely to be impossible. Yeah.. it is normal right, the feeling of up and down.

Not only do the selection to get a scholarship is hard, but also the other linked things of it are amusing.

However, thanks that I have God and believe in HIM, as usual. And its a relief that my special one is also a person who really believes on the power of God. Therefore, my job now is making this sacrifice, the separation, valuable. Studying hard, getting  a high score, applying for the scholarships, improving the research proposal and relating stuffs, searching for the universities, finishing the tasks for both the official and the unofficial and of course praying even harder. 

I like the sentences below:

"You only need to try hard and to give your best, and Let HE Finishes in HIS Way. Everything has already written in the Lauh Mahfudz. You don't need to worry that much. As long as you fulfill the reason to win, then the result will not cheat the process."

Insya Allah, everything will be OK

:)
:)

Miss you Aom, Miss you Aqsha...
I love you All.

Dear Aom, let us give our best yach.. Insya Allah we will pursue our PhD abroad.. together.

Sunday, January 01, 2017

2017 time for #PhD_Journey

Tidak terasa sudah masuk tahun 2017.

Alhamdulillah atas segala nikmat dan keberkahan serta lika liku indah perjalanan hidup selama ini ya Rabb. Terlebih tahun 2016 adalah tahun penuh dengan kenangan manis dan indah. perjuangan seorang dosen muda, suami muda, abi muda... :)

Tak sempurna memang.... tapi insya Allah Ane sudah berusaha.. walau kadang sabar itu hilang dan timbul.. walau kadang lebay dan lunglay... tapi toh karena Mu ya Rahman... ya karena izin dan ridho Mu.. hamba masih akan terus dan terus... terus berubah untuk lebih baik... terus berbenah untuk lebih sabar dan penuh semangat.

semakin cinta dengan dakwah ini... semakin butuh untuk selalu berada dalam dekapannya.

and dear Angel of Mine, thanks for being part of mylife dan tetaplah begitu selamanya hingga ke syurga... Amiin... 2016, bersamamu takkan pernah kulupa... :) kan menjadi sejarah manis perjuangan bahtera keluarga kita.

Ingat selalu visi misi cita cinta keluarga kita ya Sayang. :)
ingat kan Uda selalu.

Dear Aqsha... yg dalam namamu tertuang mimpi dan harapan kami... mimpi dan harapan bahwa Aqsha akan menjadi pejuang islam yang gagah berani... dan menjadi tentara pembebas palestina. Inysa Allah. Abi loves you, Aqsha sayang.

Mama, papa, Ibu, Atuk, om, tante, abang, adek2.. semoga semua dalam lindungan dan keberkahan dari Allah..

I am proud of you all.. semoga shaleh dan semakin shaleh..


#2017.... time for focus on my PhD Journey. Bismillah..
#go Abroad
#PhD
#Japan,Ausie, Holland  ayo aja
#RTM2018

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

To be with you all the time

Dear my love,

Sometimes, I ask you, "when will you back to padang?"

By anychance, donot think that I am tired on doing this padang-payakumbuh things. Donot ever think that I dont want to  oftenly go to your family home.

The only reason I asked that question is because I want to see you and aqsha everyday. I wanna keep my eyes on the growing of our beloved aqsa second to second, day to day.

Hopefully, the house will be ready soon so that we can welcome you on this april, insya allah

Thursday, February 11, 2016

Amazing moves

Another day of waiting.

Deg deg deg...

Its amazing to see his move in Angel bally :)

Showing he knows that we are waiting for his coming to this world.

May Allah bless you my son

Talowi, Payakumbuah
11 Februari 2016

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Wowww cool, keren

Its a surprise, when i went home and there was a plate of homemade food on the table.

Yeah after a long time Angel did not cook, and now she cooked again.

Kabarnya Angel mesti jalan siang2 ke warung unt beli bahannya. Dedek yg nyuruh katanya :) :)

For me, that was not only food, but it also a bunch of love :)

Bit by Bit

I continue to strive against my procrastination, giving my best effort. Alhamdulillah, sometimes I make progress, but at other times, I find...