Showing posts with label self reflection. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self reflection. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 05, 2024

The show must go on

 Alhamdulillah 

Sabtu dan ahad 2 dan 3 November 2024.

The show must go on. dan Alhamdulillah alla kulli hal.

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and thank you my dear self for fighting until now.

Jangan menyerah ya. the battle is not finish yet. Many more to go. Keep the spirit up.

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Alhamdulillah,

There is always a way that Allah will show us.

There are always good people around.

Help always comes, and even in the darkest times, there will always be someone to turn on the light.


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It is not done yet, dear myself.
We still have many things to do.

Allahu akbar. 

Tuesday, October 29, 2024

Susahnya berlatih istiqomah... Yuk Bisa Yuk

 Suatu saat, kita pernah berada di puncak semangat untuk sebuah amal kebaikan.

 Suatu ketika kita laksana rahib tangguh yang menghidupkan malam dengan sujud dan tilawah qur'an.

 Suatu masa kita pernah serasa menjadi tentara Badar berani, karena mampu menang jihad melawan hawa nafsu dan maksiat.

Suatu waktu kita bagaikan santri unggulan pondok tahfidz dengan tambahan hafalan yang luar biasa.


Tapi.....

Bagaimana bertahan untuk konsisten dengan segala kebaikan maksimal tersebut.

Sungguh benar yang dikatakan bahwa iman itu naik dan turun.

Walau sang murabbi mengatakan bahwa naik turunnya tersebut seharusnya mengikuti kurva naik.

Naik banyak, turun sedikit, lalu cepat sadar dan kembali. Sehingga kurvanya naik lagi.

Naik banyak, turun sedikit, lalu cepat-cepat nak kembali.

Naik banyak, turun sedikit.

begitu seterusnya.
Sehingga, secara umum kecenderungannya adalah naik meningkat.

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Tak gampang memang Jho.

Tapi jangan menyerah ya.

Seperti nama group wahtsapp adik-adik di kantor "Yuk bisa Yuk"

Ya, dear myself, Yuk bisa yuk.

Bermohonlah pada Rabbmu, agar Ia tuntun engkau untuk istiqomah dalam amal kebaikan.

Yuk bisa yuk.

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Dear Jho.

Yuk bisa duduk tenang dan rileks serta fokus mengerjakan ketikan terkait riset,mu.

Duduk saja dulu, lalu perlahan asyik masyuk ke dalam dunia riset mu. Jangan lari lagi. Ia menanti mu untuk menuntaskannya.

Coba istiqomah dulu: duduk, rileks, dan ketiklah.

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Ah sudahlah,
Mungkin harus ke Kakiku dulu saja.

Bismillah

Friday, October 18, 2024

Memaksimalkan kesendirian

Fase studi s3 ane sudah memasuki paruh akhir tahun kedua.

Dan ini adalah jadwalnya untuk fieldwork yang dengan kata lain adalah fase untuk long distance marriage lagi dengan jarak Padang - Melbourne.

Start pada 17 September 2024, Ane terbang dari Melbourne menuju Padang. Meninggal kan orang orang ter kasih insya Allah demi jihad ilmu. Menuntaskan perjuangan.

Walau, persiapan fieldwork nya masih dikebut dan dikebut. Dipenuhi rasa was was dan deg deg an. Apakah saya bisa menyelesaikan semua ini?

Supervisor pun mungkin sedang sangat sibuknya.

sehingga sempat slow respon.

Tak biasanya beliau begitu. selama ini selalu fast respond. Menambah dag dia dung.

Tak henti henti AOM menyemangati. Yang nasib nya sendiri pun sedang galau dengan riset proposal nya. Yup ane maklum se maklum maklumnya. seorang Phd Student saat telah melewati tengah tahun pertamanya akan mengalami kegamangan. Pusing mencari gap. Pusing merumuskan riset question dan bergalau ria dengan research paradigm. Research paradigm ??? Barang apa pula itu??

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But overall, syukur alhamdulillah atas segala nikmat yang telah Allah limpahkan.

Nikmat masih bisa menjalani segala dinamika hari-hari ini.

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Mumpung sendiri tanpa anak istri di Padang, mari maksimalkan apa yang bisa dimaksimalkan. Walaupun rindu tak mungkin dikalahkan oleh rasa apapun. Mari tetap jalani dan insya Allah seperti biasa, waktu akan menuntaskan segalanya. 

Allah SWT tidak akan menyia-nyiakan hambaNya.
Jadi kita hanya perlu berusaha maksimal dan menjadi hamba Allah yang senantiasa bermohon dan bermunajat kepadaNya.

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Beberapa targetan dalam memaksimalkan kesendirian.
Entahlah bisa tercapai atau tidak, tapi yuk tulis dan lakukan saja dulu. Bismillah.
1. Rutin memaksimalkan amalan yaumi.

2. Rutin nambah hafalan qur'an.

3. Rutin jaga pola makan.

4. Rutin olahraga minimal 1 jam setiap hari.

5. Rutin mengerjakan aktivitas terkait riset setiap hari menggunakan teknik podomoro.


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Insya Allah.

Thursday, June 20, 2024

Insya Allah. Yes we can.

 Alhamdulillah.

Menikmati-hari-hari dengan penuh kesyukuran.
Menjalaninya dengan keyakinan penuh pada Rahman dan Rahim nya Allah SWT.

Untuk bab itu alhamdulillah saya berazzam untuk tak pernah goyah.

Tapi...
Untuk bab usaha, terkadang sering lalai juga untuk memaksimalkan jiwa petarung.

Akhir-akhir ini, Sering juga berdiam lama jika menghadapi kebuntuan.
Pernah jua menghindar untuk mencari beragam pengalihan.

This is not good ronal. Pull yourself back and "break a leg".
Insya Allah, Yes we can.

Wednesday, October 04, 2023

pull your self together, Jho

Yes the tittle is a phrase used by people to express that one have to concentrate himself to refocus and keep calm on doing the progress. (For the exact meaning just googling it or ask chatGPT).

The first week of october about to end, and I still make a very slow progress. I need to uplift my motivation and push myself to start and consistently doing the writing. 

Alhamdulillah it is chapter 3 now, but the previous two chapters are not final yet. Many parts of it need to be revised, adjusted or even replaced with a more proper writing.

I have to fight my feeling of laziness. And the best way to do it is by start typing the first sentence. And Bismillah. I will do it now.

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Tuesday, June 27, 2023

Story of the "lovely" Before-Supervisory meeting 8

  Alhamdulillah, the 8th meeting went well. As usual, I had a hard time before the D-Day. As I mentioned on my social media, I even spent 3 days and 2 nights on campus. No, it's not because I didn't prepare earlier. I made sure to start preparing early for this meeting. But preparing a PhD research proposal in this academic atmosphere is not easy.

Despite the struggle, Allah always exists and always helps me,

Dear Uda, Adek, and my prospective heirs.
Never let Allah go from your life's journey. Always hold on to Him. Trust me.

In the past few days, I have been facing many challenges. I've been experiencing headaches with the combank app, which I can't access. I tried calling the provided hotline and even went to the branch, but it still doesn't work. I am unable to access what I need on the app.

I planned to transfer money for BUPA OSHC two days before the deadline. In the middle of the night, I tried to make the payment, but something unexpected happened. The bill payment website stated that there is a limitation on transferring the money and I needed to upgrade the limit. I'm not sure yet if I should upgrade it in my bank app or contact the web admin of the bill. If it's the former, then I still have trouble accessing it.

Today is the deadline, and after this day, the payment amount will increase. I can't imagine what I would do if that happens. Where would I find more money to cover the bill? If I have to go to the bank branch and the insurance office, it will reduce my time to prepare for the afternoon meeting. I was extremely frustrated last night, but I kept my spirits up. I took a deep breath and tried again to solve the app issue by following the steps given on the bank website. By the decree of Allah, it worked. Allahu akbar! I don't know why, but I had tried implementing the exact same steps several times this week and it didn't work. But suddenly, in the middle of the night, when I didn't know what to do, I put my full faith in Allah, and a miracle happened. Now I can access the app.

However, the problem is not yet resolved. I sent an email to the insurance campus representative. I know it was impolite to send an email in the middle of the night, but I wanted to make sure the admin would see my email and provide advice regarding the payment issue. Interestingly, the admin replied to my email in the morning and said that I could simply split the amount of money stated on the bill to match the transfer limit. Alhamdulillah, it was solved, and I managed to transfer the money. I am grateful that I will not have to pay the increased update fee.

Then... suddenly, my landlord came to the house. Finally, I could tell him about my plan to leave the house at the end of next month. I was a bit confused about how to properly communicate it to him. But Allah made a way for me, and he seemed to be okay with it and even gave me some advice on finding a new unit for my family. He's a good landlord. Thank you, Allah.

Then... the only problem remaining on my mind this morning was the preparation for the supervisory meeting. I still needed to revise the first chapter, but I didn't have enough time. Alhamdulillah, I managed to revise the important parts.

And tadaaa! The meeting went well. The supervisor helped me a lot. Of course, there are many revisions required, and some of the feedback will surely take up most of my time. But I enjoyed today's meeting, Alhamdulillah. Allah helped me again, and the one-hour meeting is now over.

Oh yes, I also managed to inform my supervisor about my plan to return to Indonesia next August to bring my family to Melbourne. Surprisingly, both supervisors were okay with it and had no concerns. Their only concern is about my proposal, so as long as the meeting and progress continue as usual, "We can still have the meeting online, only the time and location will be different," she said.

Alhamdulillah.

Now it depends on the visa and also the money (and the house, of course).

Bismillah.

No matter what, I must find a unit for August 2023. Insha Allah.

Please help me, O Lord.

Friday, June 09, 2023

self consensus for sharing good things

#Morning_english

Hmm... Being under pressure in the workplace has led to a stronger bond among us. Experiencing the same feelings often leads us to engage in long chats just to share what others have done to us. Through these conversations, we can transform our suffering into a humorous topic to chat about.

However, at times, I believe it spreads negative vibes. So, I remind myself to actively choose silence and not feel the need to share everything. I will try to only share good news and things that are useful to others. Bismillah.


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Push myself to write english post. 

To practice, I will type in chatGPT. And then ask it to check the grammar and improve the english.


The show must go on

 Alhamdulillah  Sabtu dan ahad 2 dan 3 November 2024. The show must go on. dan Alhamdulillah alla kulli hal. ___ and thank you my dear self ...