Alhamdulillah
Allahu Akbar
Terimakasih atas segala Rahmat dan PetunjukMu ya Allah.
Hanya kepadaMU tempat hamba memohon dan meminta pertolongan.
Rasa syukur yang tiada terkira.
Dan semoga fieldwork ini penuh berkah dan penuh hikmah.
Dan hamba mohon keredhoanMu untuk proses selanjutnya hingga purna jua janji bakti.
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Thank you my dearest love, I miss you so much.
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Thank you for everything, thank you for everyone.
Astagfirullahal adziim 3x.
Suatu saat, kita pernah berada di puncak semangat untuk sebuah amal kebaikan.
Suatu ketika kita laksana rahib tangguh yang menghidupkan malam dengan sujud dan tilawah qur'an.
Suatu masa kita pernah serasa menjadi tentara Badar berani, karena mampu menang jihad melawan hawa nafsu dan maksiat.
Suatu waktu kita bagaikan santri unggulan pondok tahfidz dengan tambahan hafalan yang luar biasa.
Tapi.....
Bagaimana bertahan untuk konsisten dengan segala kebaikan maksimal tersebut.
Sungguh benar yang dikatakan bahwa iman itu naik dan turun.
Walau sang murabbi mengatakan bahwa naik turunnya tersebut seharusnya mengikuti kurva naik.
Naik banyak, turun sedikit, lalu cepat sadar dan kembali. Sehingga kurvanya naik lagi.
Naik banyak, turun sedikit, lalu cepat-cepat nak kembali.
Naik banyak, turun sedikit.
begitu seterusnya.
Sehingga, secara umum kecenderungannya adalah naik meningkat.
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Tak gampang memang Jho.
Tapi jangan menyerah ya.
Seperti nama group wahtsapp adik-adik di kantor "Yuk bisa Yuk"
Ya, dear myself, Yuk bisa yuk.
Bermohonlah pada Rabbmu, agar Ia tuntun engkau untuk istiqomah dalam amal kebaikan.
Yuk bisa yuk.
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Dear Jho.
Yuk bisa duduk tenang dan rileks serta fokus mengerjakan ketikan terkait riset,mu.
Duduk saja dulu, lalu perlahan asyik masyuk ke dalam dunia riset mu. Jangan lari lagi. Ia menanti mu untuk menuntaskannya.
Coba istiqomah dulu: duduk, rileks, dan ketiklah.
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Ah sudahlah,
Mungkin harus ke Kakiku dulu saja.
Bismillah
Fase studi s3 ane sudah memasuki paruh akhir tahun kedua.
Dan ini adalah jadwalnya untuk fieldwork yang dengan kata lain adalah fase untuk long distance marriage lagi dengan jarak Padang - Melbourne.
Start pada 17 September 2024, Ane terbang dari Melbourne menuju Padang. Meninggal kan orang orang ter kasih insya Allah demi jihad ilmu. Menuntaskan perjuangan.
Walau, persiapan fieldwork nya masih dikebut dan dikebut. Dipenuhi rasa was was dan deg deg an. Apakah saya bisa menyelesaikan semua ini?
Supervisor pun mungkin sedang sangat sibuknya.
sehingga sempat slow respon.
Tak biasanya beliau begitu. selama ini selalu fast respond. Menambah dag dia dung.
Tak henti henti AOM menyemangati. Yang nasib nya sendiri pun sedang galau dengan riset proposal nya. Yup ane maklum se maklum maklumnya. seorang Phd Student saat telah melewati tengah tahun pertamanya akan mengalami kegamangan. Pusing mencari gap. Pusing merumuskan riset question dan bergalau ria dengan research paradigm. Research paradigm ??? Barang apa pula itu??
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But overall, syukur alhamdulillah atas segala nikmat yang telah Allah limpahkan.
Nikmat masih bisa menjalani segala dinamika hari-hari ini.
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Mumpung sendiri tanpa anak istri di Padang, mari maksimalkan apa yang bisa dimaksimalkan. Walaupun rindu tak mungkin dikalahkan oleh rasa apapun. Mari tetap jalani dan insya Allah seperti biasa, waktu akan menuntaskan segalanya.
Allah SWT tidak akan menyia-nyiakan hambaNya.
Jadi kita hanya perlu berusaha maksimal dan menjadi hamba Allah yang senantiasa bermohon dan bermunajat kepadaNya.
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Beberapa targetan dalam memaksimalkan kesendirian.
Entahlah bisa tercapai atau tidak, tapi yuk tulis dan lakukan saja dulu. Bismillah.
1. Rutin memaksimalkan amalan yaumi.
2. Rutin nambah hafalan qur'an.
3. Rutin jaga pola makan.
4. Rutin olahraga minimal 1 jam setiap hari.
5. Rutin mengerjakan aktivitas terkait riset setiap hari menggunakan teknik podomoro.
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Insya Allah.
Alhamdulillah.
Menikmati-hari-hari dengan penuh kesyukuran.
Menjalaninya dengan keyakinan penuh pada Rahman dan Rahim nya Allah SWT.
Untuk bab itu alhamdulillah saya berazzam untuk tak pernah goyah.
Tapi...
Untuk bab usaha, terkadang sering lalai juga untuk memaksimalkan jiwa petarung.
Akhir-akhir ini, Sering juga berdiam lama jika menghadapi kebuntuan.
Pernah jua menghindar untuk mencari beragam pengalihan.
This is not good ronal. Pull yourself back and "break a leg".
Insya Allah, Yes we can.
Believe it or not, these days I feel that i should fight with myself.
Because it seems that lazyness has occupied my mind.
yeah, I can blame other things or make excuses for it. But, i realise that it is me, my self that cannot organise my time well.
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Honestly, I am currently at the stage of struggling with my research planning and progress.
I have two supervisors that are very nice and full of encouragement. I am feel sorry for them, because my progress is still left behind. They are always kindly support me to deal with everything.
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Now, the time is limited. And many things to be done.
Bismillah...
No more "I will do it later"
No more too much thinking and thinking and thinking.
just write it done now, right now.
:D :D :D
I can do it. insya Allah.
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Dear Allah, please help me to deal with these all.
I beg you for the whole of my life.
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And of course, I have a very happy life here, with my lovely wife and sons.
Don't know what to do if they are not here :D
Thank you :D
Alhamdulillah, it's been nearly two months since my family joined me here in Melbourne, specifically on November 14, 2023. Uda Aqsho has been attending NPPS and TPA Madania for about a month now. Alhamdulillah, we've achieved a lot, and all credit goes to Allah. I'm truly grateful for everything. We've faced various challenges together, and remarkably, we've managed to navigate them with joy
Some notable moments that I want to capture in this post are:
1. Adek Rasyid has started his preparatory school session at NPPS.
Actually, the school was supposed to begin for him next year, and we initially planned to enroll him closer to the commencement date. However, Allah guided us to expedite the process. His ways are always unpredictable. During a family gathering event, some friends discussed children and their schooling with Ummi. They suggested that we should start enrolling Rasyid early because schools sometimes have limited seats. At that time, I had intended to postpone it until I finished my revision (which seems to be an endless revision cycle :D), but Ummi was eager to do it as soon as possible. So, we went to the school with the required documents (which I had prepared following Uda Aqsho's documents).
Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akbar! The day we went to the school happened to be the last week before the "once a week" session started. Allahu Akbar. It turns out there are four sessions that parents and children who will join the preparatory school next year should attend. Alhamdulillah, we were able to be a part of it. Fortunately, Allah provided guidance through Ummi's friends. Thank you, Allah, and thank you to those kind-hearted people.
The enrollment process has been very easy and straightforward, Alhamdulillah.
2. Ummi has finally managed to secure a Letter of Acceptance (LOA) from Monash University and a scholarship from LPDP.
This is a truly joyful moment after a long and challenging journey. Securing the LOA and scholarship is crucial for our family, as without these two things, we wouldn't know what to do. Honestly, up until now, we still don't have any other options. We literally don't know how Ummi would stay here in Melbourne without the scholarship and LOA.
Syukur Alhamdulillah. Thank you to everybody who has contributed to this achievement. May Allah reward you abundantly. Ameen YRA
3. Uda Aqsha was recognized as the best student for year 2 in this period.
One day this week, I picked up Uda Aqsha as usual. He approached me with his prestigious smile and showed me a card in his hand. The home-teacher had written appreciative words about Aqsha, highlighting his responsibility and hard work in completing all of his school assignments. I commended him for it and created an Instagram reel to document his reaction. Then, unexpectedly, Ummi connected with another Indonesian parent at NPPS who conveyed congratulations through WhatsApp. She mentioned that Aqsha was chosen as the best student for this period. Typically, there is an evaluation for each period, and the best students from each class are announced and recognized during the joint student meeting in the school hall.
Masha Allah, thank you, my diligent boy. I am reminded of the time when discussing school was a forbidden topic, even back in Indonesia because he didn't want to attend school in Melbourne. The period before starting school was a challenging and worrisome time for our family. On one hand, I felt compassion for Aqsha, who was about to face an unfamiliar school environment with limited English proficiency. However, Allah paved the way for His blessings. Since the first day, Aqsho has consistently gone to and from school with enthusiasm. Alhamdulillah.
Oh, there's a secret of Allah's love behind this achievement. Before this, Uda Aqsha participated in a class meeting activity at his school. He had put in effort but hadn't won yet. At home, Ummi said he was very sad, even to the point of tears, wondering why he never won any competitions. This was the case back when he was at Adzkia too, despite his sincere efforts. We comforted him, and it turns out Allah comforted him with this achievement. Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akbar.
And there's more to share; I will update you in future posts, insha Allah.
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Now, please keep me in your prayers as I strive to excel in my revision. The deadline is approaching."
Yes the tittle is a phrase used by people to express that one have to concentrate himself to refocus and keep calm on doing the progress. (For the exact meaning just googling it or ask chatGPT).
The first week of october about to end, and I still make a very slow progress. I need to uplift my motivation and push myself to start and consistently doing the writing.
Alhamdulillah it is chapter 3 now, but the previous two chapters are not final yet. Many parts of it need to be revised, adjusted or even replaced with a more proper writing.
I have to fight my feeling of laziness. And the best way to do it is by start typing the first sentence. And Bismillah. I will do it now.
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