Road to PhD part yang kesekian-sekian-sekian: Edisi Mendaftar Beasiswa BPI Kemdikbudristek 2022

 Alhamdulillah.
berkesempatan kembali untuk meraih IELTS 7.5

Insya Allah akan digunakan untuk mendaftar beasiswa dan mencari LoA

Sedang dapat peluang saat ini. Namun tentu seperti biasa, Allah memberikan rasa deg deg an untuk menemani perjuangan ini.

Tinggal hitungan hari untuk batas akhir pendaftaran beasiswa BPI dari kemdikbud ristek. LoA sudah diapply, namun masih menanti kata final dari kampusnya. Semoga kali ini Allah izinkan untuk dapat meraih cita melanjutkan studi di luar negeri bersama keluarga tercinta.

Kalau dipikir-pikir, bagaimana teknis dan caranya hingga saat ini masih belum jelas. Namun insya Allah jika Allah izinkan, maka akan selalu ada cara dan jalan.

Bismillah.

Kembali luruskan niat dan tekad. Bahwa ini semua untuk Izzul Islam wal Muslimin.,

Aamiin Ya Rabbal Alamin

#1 #7forUmmy Ada aman My?

The first lonely day in this planet.

:)

Until now 19.25 WIB i still here, in the beloved campus. At the parking area of the mosque actually. Hmm.. i think it will be nice if i do like this. Extend my daily campus live until isya.

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As my son still in adaptation mode with their new environment, the most sentence that i wanna ask to angel is " Ada aman anak2 my?"

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Hmm...
I believe Allah will show us the right way to deal with all of this.

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Ironically, it seems that me myself the one who not aman.
Like now.. just waiting isya time while blogging in the parking area..😁😁

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However, this is what me and my wife have decided.
This is our journey.
Insya Allah... We can manage this phase.

To prepare our next milestone.

My #Rasyid,

Mungkin ini tulisan awal2 (jika tak dibilang pertama) tentang Rasyid, putra kedua kami.
Maaf ya Nak, kemampuan ngeblog abi menurun drastis karena kesibukan.

Bukan tak mau membuat rekam jejak untuk nanda baca nanti2, tapi waktu akhir-akhir ini sangat lah berharga, dan daripada mengetik di layar "petak cahaya" ini, abi dan ummy lebih memilih untuk bermain bersamamu dan Uda atau mengerjakan seabrek pekerjaan atau bahkan beristirahat.
Alhamdulillah, Allah masih beri kesempatan kita untuk sibuk dalam kebaikan.

My Rasyid...
Hmm... Uniq
Secara gaya dan prilaku ada mirip dan ada beda dengan My Aqsha. :)

Kehadiran Mu, membuat abi menjadi spesial.

Setidaknya di antara teman2 yg punya 2 digit  kode awal yang sama.

Abi bisa ngeles dengan ucapan...
" Bla bla bla, harap maklum Bapak2 beranak dua ya beginilahh..."

😂😂
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Banyak momen yg somehow gimanaaa gitu...

Mulai dari Nanda yg kalao nangis walau udah digendong ummy atau nenek kemudian langsung diam saat pindah tangan ke pelukan abi..

Atau
Saat udah susah2 menidurkan dengan cara di gendong, namun pas menaruh di kasur, Nanda menangis dan terpaksa digendong lagi... (Fiuuhhh...😁)

Atau...
Saat dalam keletihan dan tenaga minus menggendong dan menidurkan nanda , lalu pas baru saja tidur, negara api menyerang... Eh... Uda tiba2 datang dan megang pipi lah, peluk leher lah, taruh tangan di perut dedek lahh... Yang akibatnya Nanda kembali bangun dan menangis.
Lalu dengan enteng dan innocent si Uda bilang.. " Ndak da Co ganggu dooo"
Grrrhhhhh... Hahaha

Kadang senjata pamungkas abi hanya ada 2:
Bilang ke ummy : " Myyy.. dedek mau mimik"
Atau
Menggunakan " Iron Science" (you know lah what I mean😎😂

But overal, I do Love you Both, so much.

Rabbi habli minasholihin.

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Ga kebayang ntar jika ummy lulus pelatihan ke Bandung (amiin). Dan abi tingga sendiri di sini -_-

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Tapi mending gitu sich, dari pada bayangin abi atau ummy mesti beda waktu dan tempat untuk PhD nya....

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Well.

Subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar

Pk 139 lpdp dipamartani

Dengan penuh deg deg an. Kaki ini dilangkahkan.

Berbekal dukungan penuh orang2 terkasih. Padang kutinggalkan sementara.

Untuk berjuang, untuk menang.

Sekali lagi.... Bukanlah tentang bagaimana bertahan dalam dinamika seminggu ke depan...

Tapi lebih pada bagaimana menahan rindu ketika fragmen-fragmen kemesraan bersama Angel, Aqsho dan Rasyid seolah memanggil pulang.

Ah... Entah mengapa aku berlatih menyanyikan mars lpdp di rumah secara terbuka. Akibatnya Aqsho, putra sulungku juga ikut menyanyikannya. Ia sangat hapal 2 kata ini " hai bumi....." Dengan irama yg lucu.

Dan engkau tahu sobat... Setiap kali menyanyikan mars ini, tak ayal, Aqsho pun selalu teringat dan rindu dengan nya tak tertahankan.

Parahnya lagi.... Kami tak henti2 nya berlatih bersama menyanyikan mars tsb pada persiapan acara PK ini... -____-
Ahhh..... I miss u

Bismillah.
Semoga kami bisa berangkat bareng.

Hokkeh.

Keep calm and follow PK.
Hari ini hari 1 pk 139

At poli paru

This morning, i plan to have a tbc check up in rsud padang.

One interesting fact i found is about the patien. On the queque line, almost all of them are seniors 😀

I become the youngest one. Hehe.

It is funny to hear their discussion topic and such kind of jokes.

Hokkeh.. bismillah.

Submitting students mark

Alhamdulillah finally its done already. This semester is officially finished :)

Although i should stay a bit longer in the office. Until 21.04 wib.

Oh ya.. started from this thursday... I have been joined with AMT of stkip adzkia

Its nice to see and reflect our self based on expert guidance. The phsycholog was conducted an attractive training, so far.

But you know, i am not really a 100% in on this event, because some part of my mind still think about the time that i should spend with my little fam.

Hmmm...

Hokkeh. Just enjoy it ... Jho.

And Alhamdulillah my AoM are also preparing ielts in deakin unp program. Do the best honey.

And i will focua on Budi LN scholarship aplication... (Soon)

Rayo 1439 H

Alhamdulillah...

And now is time to prep our departure to padang tomorrow morning.

Hmmm.
Aas announcement, and i  am not the one on the list yet.

Hokkeh i should focus on the next step.
Endeavour, Budi ln and other scholarships.

Insya Allah.

Bahagia.....

Dear Allah.

Subhanallah...
I thank you so much for the happiness.
Allah always know what is the best for us. He knows the right time to inform us about something. So just do your best Nal. Allah already has the scenario for you.

Kabar2 bahagia.
#LoA .kamis 10 mei 2018
#akad alfi fadhila. Jumat 11 mei 2018
#perpanjangan  serdos. Sabtu 12 mei 2018 jam 2.00 am. (Padahal tgl 12 mei ini adalah deadline akhirnya).

So... Doa berikutnya adalah... Semoga ada plti padang yg buka test. Dan semoga hamba lulus.

Amiin YRA.

Juga persiapan beasiswa dan misteri masa depan lainnya.

#Marhaban ya Ramadhan.

# 20togo Time fly SO fast.

We dont know exactly what will happen tomorrow or even We cannot predict for the next second of our Life .

Therefore, We have to use the time wisely .
Although Some people argue that life is only once, it should be spent worthfully .

And here, l am trying to deal with time so that l can make it useful .

#21togo Relax, Focus and Fly to the Top

Ehm...

in my opinion, neither the time , which is argued as the main factor that the students should pay attention for, nor the psychological pressure will let the result of the test decrease. Yet, it is the belief that will make it exist.

Thus, in order to avoid that circumstance to be happened, we ought to put the spirit up in our mind.

The spirit will guarantee that our effort will lead to success and we can pursue what we intended to.

Insya Allah.

And of course, managing the time and  relax will influence us in achieving it.

A word named Rindu

One of the most beautiful parts of loving someone special is the "Rindu"

No matter how much I push my self to agree on what I wrote in another blog several days ago, I still remain unsure about this feeling. Yup "Rindu".
I stated that 1 to 2 days of gathering could give me power for 2 following months. oh came on, That is just a placebo.

The point is not about the melancholic things, yes indeed in some parts, but for me it reflects one eternal truth about my life. That I couldn't stand alone. I need these people around me. Very near to me that I can hug them whenever I want, that I can be with them whatever my condition is. That I can hear their voices, that I can support them with all of mine.

Yet, in the reality, this may differ due to many reasons. Like what I have experienced now. Being apart for three months for improving my IELTS skills. Until now, this is the very long separation phase of me and the family. (it still about 2 months remaining).

I just wondering about the next journey. How it will be?
This IELTS things will relate to my PhD plan. I insists to go abroad for continuing my study, insya Allah. I have already searched some possible destination and predicted the preparation process which I need to focus on. Even, I created some thought calculation in my mind about the financial, the time, the scenario... But all of it still seems fussy for me. On the one hand, when the warrior side of me are arise, I will let those things as a trigger to increase my efforts. On the other hand, when the weak opposition of me took over my mind, it seems that the journey are too long and more likely to be impossible. Yeah.. it is normal right, the feeling of up and down.

Not only do the selection to get a scholarship is hard, but also the other linked things of it are amusing.

However, thanks that I have God and believe in HIM, as usual. And its a relief that my special one is also a person who really believes on the power of God. Therefore, my job now is making this sacrifice, the separation, valuable. Studying hard, getting  a high score, applying for the scholarships, improving the research proposal and relating stuffs, searching for the universities, finishing the tasks for both the official and the unofficial and of course praying even harder. 

I like the sentences below:

"You only need to try hard and to give your best, and Let HE Finishes in HIS Way. Everything has already written in the Lauh Mahfudz. You don't need to worry that much. As long as you fulfill the reason to win, then the result will not cheat the process."

Insya Allah, everything will be OK

:)
:)

Miss you Aom, Miss you Aqsha...
I love you All.

Dear Aom, let us give our best yach.. Insya Allah we will pursue our PhD abroad.. together.

My #Aqsha First Flight

Alhamdulillah...

Tuesday 8 August 2017 with sriwijaya air sj020 from BIM to Kuala Namu Medan.

In the beginning, he really enthusiast, but then, his little boy instinct come up and its rise up when the plan landing process. Yeah.. it due to his ear or his degup jantung yang meningkat.


:) :)

overall we can finish it.

And then we took grab to get the online taxi and go to airy syariah medan sunggal

#Ready for tomorrow insya Allah

#BUDI LN seleksi berkas udah keluar pengumumannya. Alhamdulillah belum lulus.
Mesti semangat lagi belajar,

 

in the middle of the deadline --> BUDI LN

Wow...

Bismillah.
Nothing impossible right. Keep move!!!

Don't blame others as you don't blame your self. just do it. Do it correctly, quickly and of course happily.

I am applying BUDI LN now. Some part of the requirements are just wow things, but I believe I still have chance to manage it well. Insya Allah, Ya Rabb...  I beg You Allah... please help me and my family.


the final deadline is 28 of jully 2017,
the kopertis deadline is 26 of july 2017,
but my actual deadline is tomorrow.. :( :( :(

Allahu Akbar.

#in the middle of a very busy week.
#Wisuda7 STKIP Adzkia
#Input Nilai
#ICOMSET
#Tallent Scouting prep.
#LoA Things

Hmmm... hurry up _ #rtoz2

Time flies fast.

I need to focus and do more.

Ya Rabb, help me to fullfil the process well.

Hmm...
Insya Allah, hopefully Angel will get her "asisten ahli" soon.

#alhamdulillah Aqsha not diare anymore

First count #rtoz1

I decleare tonight is my first official step to apply for PhD at Deakin Uni.

Although, it has been started 2 years ago when i joined with unand deakin predeparture training.

Hmmm.
Bismillah.
In this holly ramadhan, i will start to write my expression of interest.

#RToz1

One day, we will thank Allah for what happen now

Alhamdulillah...

yeah... Everything happened for a reason.
Maybe we don't know what is the reason at the moment, but I always believe that Allah Might keep the reason secret until the right time.

It makes me learn to strengthen my vision and niat. Maybe I still need more time to prepare myself before returning to where I  belong. Yup. Niat and preparation.

So now... lets optimize the chance  we have.
AYYKTM
Apapun yang terjadi kami tetap mengabdi.

:)

2017 time for #PhD_Journey

Tidak terasa sudah masuk tahun 2017.

Alhamdulillah atas segala nikmat dan keberkahan serta lika liku indah perjalanan hidup selama ini ya Rabb. Terlebih tahun 2016 adalah tahun penuh dengan kenangan manis dan indah. perjuangan seorang dosen muda, suami muda, abi muda... :)

Tak sempurna memang.... tapi insya Allah Ane sudah berusaha.. walau kadang sabar itu hilang dan timbul.. walau kadang lebay dan lunglay... tapi toh karena Mu ya Rahman... ya karena izin dan ridho Mu.. hamba masih akan terus dan terus... terus berubah untuk lebih baik... terus berbenah untuk lebih sabar dan penuh semangat.

semakin cinta dengan dakwah ini... semakin butuh untuk selalu berada dalam dekapannya.

and dear Angel of Mine, thanks for being part of mylife dan tetaplah begitu selamanya hingga ke syurga... Amiin... 2016, bersamamu takkan pernah kulupa... :) kan menjadi sejarah manis perjuangan bahtera keluarga kita.

Ingat selalu visi misi cita cinta keluarga kita ya Sayang. :)
ingat kan Uda selalu.

Dear Aqsha... yg dalam namamu tertuang mimpi dan harapan kami... mimpi dan harapan bahwa Aqsha akan menjadi pejuang islam yang gagah berani... dan menjadi tentara pembebas palestina. Inysa Allah. Abi loves you, Aqsha sayang.

Mama, papa, Ibu, Atuk, om, tante, abang, adek2.. semoga semua dalam lindungan dan keberkahan dari Allah..

I am proud of you all.. semoga shaleh dan semakin shaleh..


#2017.... time for focus on my PhD Journey. Bismillah..
#go Abroad
#PhD
#Japan,Ausie, Holland  ayo aja
#RTM2018

Sea dr 4 2016

Alhamdulillah this is the d day. Actually not as horrible as I think. Yeah just prepare well do the best and pray. Allah will always with you insya allah.

I like the atmosphere, meet and discuss with academia and scientists from various institution.

There are still many gaps in my mind about the topics the model the terms :)

But thats is the challenge, I really thanks Allah for this moment.

Meet my supervisors around the world.

Keren itu kalo lihat bapak ibuk yg udah ga muda lagi present something yg really scientific itu sesuatu bingit.

Life is unpredictable

Yups, I think everybody will agree with me that life is unpredictable.

For example, when you planed your schedule for a day perfectly then as soon as the day is coming, you can see the planed you have made are changing. Sometimes slightly but in another time it changes dramatically.

Learning from the experience, now I am a bit curious to wait and see what will happen to the plan that I made for a particular day.

Its amazing bro. And it could surprise you and make your day more colorful.

Just enjoy it. On the one hand you organize the plan and ready for doing it as your plan and on the other hand you are waiting for the surprise moment and how to deal with it.

Alhamdulillah.. I really enjoy it insya allah. Eventough, sometimes it seems to be rough, but everything happen with a reason right. And thats Allah's scenario insya Allah.

:)
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As today, one of my surprise moment is when suddenly I spent more than an hour just to hear one of my mentee talk. He talk about manything. And subhanalloh it reminds me about this phrase "donot judge a book by its cover"
And yeah the more you hear the more you learn and in the same time it makes you to do more reflections in your ownlife. About what Allah already Gives you.

Alhamdulillah

The next surprise moment in this day, I met my old schoolmate unconsciously when I go to sph for greeting the didi's baby boy.

Yups again, listening their story and get the ibrah. Insya allah

#hmm
I should prepare for seadr 4 in unp in 17 and 18 april...

Can you imagine that all keynote speakers and all keynote parallels presenter have relation with me .. My Dutch supervisor, my surabaya supervisors, my palembang supervisors and my Australia (potential) supervisor... Wow otokeee what should I do??????????
Hmm but first, let finish what this machine do...

#14 april 2016
#waiting for the laundry
23.50 wib

Next week will be challenging :)

In these two night we prepare the house for welcoming angel and aqsha. Even until mid night.. Hehe deadliners as usual.

And tomorrow is the time. .yeah with wawan I will pick they up and bring them to padang...

Whoaa almost three months, hopefully angel will like it... Not that big and furious, but yeah.. That, what I  only  can right now, especially to provide more space in the main building of the house.

Thanks for papa and mama and roli and randa and bang hen and toms.. Love you fulll. Rezeki punya 3 pejantan tangguh sebagai saudara.. :)

Ehm...
Tarra...
I already got my sim a.
Bismillah

Next week:
#Officially bertiga
#welcome to padang aqsha (tomorrow insya allah)
#NgeJazz insya Allah
#sea dr 4
#baralek bg andri
#ketemu potential supervisor s3 dari oz
#ketemu supervisor s2 dari holland
#ketemu supervisor s2 dari surabaya
#ketemu suoervisor dan dosen s1 dari unp

Challenging euy

Allahu akbar