Bahagia.....

Dear Allah.

Subhanallah...
I thank you so much for the happiness.
Allah always know what is the best for us. He knows the right time to inform us about something. So just do your best Nal. Allah already has the scenario for you.

Kabar2 bahagia.
#LoA .kamis 10 mei 2018
#akad alfi fadhila. Jumat 11 mei 2018
#perpanjangan  serdos. Sabtu 12 mei 2018 jam 2.00 am. (Padahal tgl 12 mei ini adalah deadline akhirnya).

So... Doa berikutnya adalah... Semoga ada plti padang yg buka test. Dan semoga hamba lulus.

Amiin YRA.

Juga persiapan beasiswa dan misteri masa depan lainnya.

#Marhaban ya Ramadhan.

Bagaimana unt lulus d bab sabar...

Kadang jadi malu sendiri dengan berbagai postingan d dunia maya.

Karena kadang dunia nyata tak seindah gemerlap tampilan d dunia maya itu.

Tentang sabar saja contohnya.

Ehm...

Susahnya :(

two years old... My Boy Shalahuddin Alaqsha Rifandi

Alhamdulillah...

Puji Syukur tiada terkira pada Mu Ya Rabb..

Yang segala permohonan hanya kepadMu kami tumpukan.

Two years already, the baby is growing up, and now, he become a little son.
he already now what he want, what he dont want and he can communicate it with people around.

Each moment we have together are very valuable, and not all of them can be written on this blog. But absolutely, it will remain in my memory clearly insya Allah.

Dear AoM, thank you very much for your strength, for your belief that you can give the ASI for two years.

Alhamdulillah, we can stop the ASI immediately on 17 of february 2018. Its funny, to see how Aqsha responded on this separation :D :D :D
"Atchoo.. mimik.. mimi aak"

Hehe...

When I flash back to the moment two years ago, the waiting time for aqsho's birth day were also the time when I give my Total Commitment to the way I walked in now. YUPS.. Aqsho's Age also mean the age of my commitment for this WAY. :)

Insya Allah.

Happy milad my dear. I love you.

dear Aqsha

Shalahuddin Alaqsha Rifandi,


Hari hari yang penuh kebahagian bersamamu Nak..

dan tak terasa, engkau membesar dan membesar, makin lincah dan cerdas.

Tak terbayang nanti jika kamu sudah benar- benar besar...


Ah.. mari nak kita nikmati saja dulu masa-masa kecil mu ini.

kadang sempat ku berpikir, kala bersamamu.... "jangan lah terlalu cepat waktu mengantarmu besar..."


Abi masih mau bermanja-manja bersamamu...

:) :)

semoga jadi anak yang saleh

too much talking

I define my self as a person who do not really like to interact with a too much talking person.

And I also keen on working in a silent environment.

But...

I just realized that, unconsciously, I am likely to have talked more than I need this previous days.


Hokke.. it is not good since it contrast with what I believe in. As a "silent person"

So, maybe to fulfill the demand of the boss, i need to cut down my talking frequencies and pay more attention for the upcoming deadline things.

#proposal
#apllication
#sending documents
#preparing the research

#AllahuAkbar
#KITA BISA

Old Room, new Taste

Hokkeh...

today is a little bit nano2 for me.

I should prepare myself to comeback into the reality.


And yeah.. of course, the real world is a hard place to struggle. We need to fight to be the winner.

Fight with our lazyness,....


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Ibroh dari sebuah pertemuan yang kuhadiri beberapa waktu lalu.

Andai nanti aku jadi seorang pimpinan, aku harus mampu menjadi perekat dan penyemangat untuk semua tim ku. Aku harus mampu menempatkan mereka semua sebagai orang-orang yang hebat dan dapat diandalkan. Walau mungkin beberapa ada yang spesial bagiku, namun tak kan ku ungkapkan di depan yang lainnya....

Karena memang, dibanding-bandingkan itu tidaklah enak....

:) :) :)

Semangattt semangattt semangattt

ALLAHU AKBAR

#luruskan niat
#rapatkan shaf
#kuatkan semangat
#kerja kerja kerja
#bisa dan mau

A lovely smile in the first of January 2018

January, the first

2018

Pagi-pagi buru-buru siap2 untuk mengantar mentariku pergi kegiatan Latansa di Tiger camp.  Doi sempat kurang semangat karena minim tidur sebab anak bujang nempel terus semalaman.

Suasana pun sedikit mendung dan bahkan gerimis.

But... karena sudah diniatkan pergi, maka doi tetap ke lokasi.
Kutinggalkan ia dengan pesan, "Sayang, nanti kalo pusing, bilang kurang sehat saja ke panitia, yang penting kita hadir memenuhi taklimat"....

teng tengg.... dan daku pun pergi.


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Lama sekali rasanya hari ini berlalu dan sms minta segera dijemputpun masuk.

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Tarraa.....
Subhanallah...

Belum sempat matikan mesin motor, ane sudah disambut dengan senyuman dan lambaian tangan bersemangat, sambil "mengaum" lucu...

dan mengalirlah cerita penuh semangat sepanjang jalan pulang dan setelahnya dan setelahnya...

ALhamdulillah...

Semangat yang berkobar juga menular...

Senang sekali melihatmu tersenyum dan penuh semangat Dinda....
hmmm... serasa dunia ini semua bisa ku genggam :) karena ada kamu yang bersemangat bersamaku

Barakalloh.

Terimakasih dakwah...
Terimakasih Ya Allah

A word named Rindu

One of the most beautiful parts of loving someone special is the "Rindu"

No matter how much I push my self to agree on what I wrote in another blog several days ago, I still remain unsure about this feeling. Yup "Rindu".
I stated that 1 to 2 days of gathering could give me power for 2 following months. oh came on, That is just a placebo.

The point is not about the melancholic things, yes indeed in some parts, but for me it reflects one eternal truth about my life. That I couldn't stand alone. I need these people around me. Very near to me that I can hug them whenever I want, that I can be with them whatever my condition is. That I can hear their voices, that I can support them with all of mine.

Yet, in the reality, this may differ due to many reasons. Like what I have experienced now. Being apart for three months for improving my IELTS skills. Until now, this is the very long separation phase of me and the family. (it still about 2 months remaining).

I just wondering about the next journey. How it will be?
This IELTS things will relate to my PhD plan. I insists to go abroad for continuing my study, insya Allah. I have already searched some possible destination and predicted the preparation process which I need to focus on. Even, I created some thought calculation in my mind about the financial, the time, the scenario... But all of it still seems fussy for me. On the one hand, when the warrior side of me are arise, I will let those things as a trigger to increase my efforts. On the other hand, when the weak opposition of me took over my mind, it seems that the journey are too long and more likely to be impossible. Yeah.. it is normal right, the feeling of up and down.

Not only do the selection to get a scholarship is hard, but also the other linked things of it are amusing.

However, thanks that I have God and believe in HIM, as usual. And its a relief that my special one is also a person who really believes on the power of God. Therefore, my job now is making this sacrifice, the separation, valuable. Studying hard, getting  a high score, applying for the scholarships, improving the research proposal and relating stuffs, searching for the universities, finishing the tasks for both the official and the unofficial and of course praying even harder. 

I like the sentences below:

"You only need to try hard and to give your best, and Let HE Finishes in HIS Way. Everything has already written in the Lauh Mahfudz. You don't need to worry that much. As long as you fulfill the reason to win, then the result will not cheat the process."

Insya Allah, everything will be OK

:)
:)

Miss you Aom, Miss you Aqsha...
I love you All.

Dear Aom, let us give our best yach.. Insya Allah we will pursue our PhD abroad.. together.

Jatuh cinta lagi

hmm...

Pagi kemaren Angel Bilang, kalau ia jatuh cinta lagi padaku..


hehe..

hmmm....
Aku, seseorang yang biasa-biasa saja ini... yang tak pandai untuk beromantis ria, dan kadang juga tak mengerti cara memahami wanita. maklum wanita satu-satunya yang sangat berpengaruh disepanjang masa mudaku sebelum menikah adalah ibuku.

Ah...
benar mungkin.. :)
Angel jatuh cinta lagi padaku. tepatnya sabtu kemaren.
Mungkin karena sepekan ini adalah pekan yang sanghat sangat sibuk dan penuh debar-debar.

Biasanya jika suasana begini, tensi jadi tinggi.. :D

pas lewat hari jumat.. fiuhhh

we have a holiday.. walaupun itu hanya di rumah.

bermain bertiga tanpa memikirkan apa-apa

"rehat sejenak"

#Love you dinda Sayang.
#Uda minta maaf ye...

Ahh... Shalahuddinku...

These recent days, as i said in the previous post, are very busy.


And often i should extend my work time until mid night or even more.

And you know, my boy, Aqsha have a new habbit. Yup, playing around until midnight and even more sometime... -__-

But, yeah.. knowing that this little boy become taller and taller and more clever and  rrr r rr  :D makes me thank You ya Rabb.

Rabby Habli Minasholihin

One day, we will thank Allah for what happen now

Alhamdulillah...

yeah... Everything happened for a reason.
Maybe we don't know what is the reason at the moment, but I always believe that Allah Might keep the reason secret until the right time.

It makes me learn to strengthen my vision and niat. Maybe I still need more time to prepare myself before returning to where I  belong. Yup. Niat and preparation.

So now... lets optimize the chance  we have.
AYYKTM
Apapun yang terjadi kami tetap mengabdi.

:)

Yup, no matter how....

Yup no  matter how, no matter what. Only you know how hard your life is.

Dijalani saja. Karena orang sering lupa untuk melihat situasi dengan kaca mata orang lain.

Mereka kadang hanya tahu tentang sesuatu yang menurut mereka tepat dan seharusnya seperti apa. Tanpa ia tahu bahwa semua itu tidaklah sama.

Misal, apa yang harus dikerjakan orang sebelum ke kantor, rute mana saja yang harus dilaluinya, berapa jarak yang mesti diarungi.

Kadang orang merasa bebannya sama.. kan sama-sama supir, kan sama-sama ma najer, kan sama-sama dosen, saya begini berarti kamu juga mesti seperti ini dong.
Hmm... medan kita kadang berbeda boy, Peran kita juga mungkin berbeda.

Ini menjadi pelajaran berharga bagi saya.
1. Only ourselves know how hard ourlifes is
2. Dont ever judge people only based on what we see. Really, we really dont know the great story behind it.
3. appreciate. ... yup appreciation.   Appreciate everything in your life. Because insya allah everything happens with a reason. Allah knows the best for us.

OK... Enough.

Yup,, thats enough. Lets back to the world.

Many things to do.

Sometime, only our ownself knows how busy we are and we dont know to start where. And yeah enough for this lalala yeyeye things. I am done

Nothing

Cintaku adalah cinta yang sederhana. Hanya cinta yang tidak punya apa-apa

Sabar dan optimis

Membesarkan anak itu butuh kesabaran. Apalagi jika kita menumpangkan mimpi dan Cita-Cita Besar kepadanya.

Membesarkan anak itu butuh rasa optimis. Optimis bahwa kita bisa mendiamkannya yang sedang menangis keras. Optimis bahwa kita akan tetap sanggup menggendongnya walau hari demi hari bobotnya bertambah dan gerak motoriknya juga bertambah. Optimis bahwa kita bisa tetap Profesional bekerja walau hampir sepanjang hari kita habiskan bersama nya.

Ya... Sabar dan optimis. Karena anak kita adalah aset berharga perjuangan kita. Karena anak kita adalah anak-anak mata rantai perjuangan dakwah, insya Allah

Alhamdulillah,

Bahagia itu sederhana, sering orang kata begitu.

Seperti, dapat bertemu si buah hati setiap hari.. Love you aqsha

When time is very expensive

Available Time is limited but the  workload is overloaded.

However, we cannot just let it go as it is.

Thats why we are here, because this is only for the great man. Yeah the mankind who realize that it is not the time of denying the condition but its the time of managing it :)

*since we have to do what we are in charge to, our time is limited,even for making a call
:(

For you dear my friends who have so many spare time... Please use it wisely.. Because you dont know what is it look like when you are in a run out of time conditions

I will survive insya Allah

Sometimes the real life is not as simple as the theory. But when the theory comes from the teology then I believe that it must be true. Then, the remaining is about the ability to survive in the turbulance.

I believe that I can manage it well insya Allah.

Now, when everything seems to be challenging for me, I am trying to keep on the track Eventhough,  the track itself is not really clear yet. Do you ever hear about these phrases " when you feel that there is no more way you can do, then that's the signal that Allah will open a door for you, Allah will offer you a solution and you don't need to worry too much, coz everything is simple for Allah.
Lahaulawalaquata illabillahil aliyil azhim.

I will survive insya Allah.

# mengoptimalkan apa yang ada
#husnudzhon
#qonaah
#istigfar
Karena istigfarmembuka pintu ampunan dan pintu rizki.
#fighting

Ngabstract

Hmm, the power of kepepet.

And tarra,, this is the night before friday.

Yeah, I dont know in these recent days, the night like this seem too long for me.

I just realized the reason. The reason is because tomorrow is friday which mean the day to come to meet my lovely. Miss you so much sayang.

Tapi penantian kali ini beda... Disambil nonton dan ngabstract ngejar target :)

Alhamdulillah

Penghambaanku

Dear Allah,

I am so weak, and I know that I am nothing without you.

Dear Allah, I thank You so much, for everything You give me.

Life is hard, and I just giving the best things I have, I already tried and still trying harder then before.
But this is me, your servant. This is me, yeah... me. I'll push my self to the limit, so that I can say to You dear Allah, that I've tried. Dont Leave me please, my Lord.